Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb13: Reverb is a way to reflect on the past year and project into the next year with a prompt a day for 31 days. December is the perfect time to reflect on 2013 and start to create intentions for 2014.
Day 12: Free Writing
Write for five consecutive minutes on the word “jump” as it pertains to this past year. No editing. Set a timer. Just write.
Ok, here goes. When I think of the word “JUMP,” I think of leaping. Like a leap of faith. The faith that it took for me to have in myself to get through this weight loss endeavor successfully. After so many years of trying and failing, of making excuses and getting so frustrated, I finally just jumped in with both feet. I just decided to do it.
It wasn’t easy. In fact, a lot of it was really hard. I kept the decision to have WLS from most people because I didn’t really want to hear everyone’s opinions or horror stories. I knew it was what I needed to do to get to my goals, and I also knew that in no way was it taking the easy way out. It was tough sticking to the 1200 calories diet plan while I was pre-op. It became easier as time went on and I saw more success on the scale.
And now that I’m seeing huge success on the scale, and my journey is nearing it’s end, I’m so grateful to that girl who jumped a year ago. Wow, I just realized that I’m over halfway to my goal. Actually, more than that. I have about 55 more pounds to lose to get to my goal weight. Or at least what I think will be my goal weight, who knows? 150 pounds seems like a nice round number to someone who was 315 not very long ago. But who knows if it will be my final weight when I get there. I’m leaving that decision open.
The timer literally just went off. Pretty perfect timing.