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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 47 was back to reality – back to work after spring break.  I’m proud of how well this week went.  I planned and prepared all my meals, got in cardio workouts every day, and fit in two Tone It Up toning workouts (although I was hoping to get in a few more). Overall, it was a great week!

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 180.0, which is a loss of 5 pounds this week (!!!), and a loss of 97 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 135 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 30 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds.  Those two pounds I gained over my vacation flew off in the first two days of the week, and then the rest of the pounds came off a little at a time the rest of the week.  I haven’t had a loss this big in months!  Forgetting about the water weight of those two pounds, a 3-pound loss is a really strong loss for me, especially in a week where I didn’t get my period (I drop a lot of weight whenever that happens).

So what was different this week?  A couple of things:

  • Greens! I had green smoothies for breakfast several times this week.  I think adding the greens and the chia seeds to my morning meal helped start my day with lots of fiber (not to mention all those vitamins).  I also made sure to have a salad for lunch and/or sauteed greens for dinner.  I’m at the point in my post-op life where my system can handle more greens, which thrills me.  I love having plenty of greens in my diet, and it obviously works well with weight loss.
  • Water! I made sure to get in at least 8-10 glasses of water each day.  Even on days like Wednesday when my water intake was low by the afternoon, I made sure to make up for it in the evening with lots of herb tea. The rest of the week, the water went down fast. Yesterday I had 14 glasses!  Not only does water help with the metabolism, but it definitely fills the gap in between meals. Plus, I’m noticing that my skin always looks a lot better when I get plenty of water in throughout the day.

This week, I’m obviously going to continue more of the same on both these counts because they make me feel better and I love the results I’m getting.

In terms of my workouts, the plan for this week is to make sure I fit in Tone It Up workouts, along with cardio:
Sunday: walk with Sofi + bike ride / TIU: Easter Bunny Workout
Monday: Lateral X elliptical + walk with Sofi / TIU: Bikini Arms (Beach Babe 2 DVD)
Tuesday: bike ride + walk with Sofi / TIU: Honeymoon Ready Routine
Wednesday: run/walk intervals + walk with Sofi / TIU: Sunset Yoga
Thursday: Body Combat (5:30pm) / TIU: Summer Sizzle + Short & Sweet Shoulders
Friday: Lateral X elliptical + walk with Sofi / TIU: Love Your Body w/ HIIT
Saturday: spinning + walk with Sofi

I have great meals planned this week, too:

  • breakfasts: protein shakes or green smoothies
  • lunches: salads w/ rotisserie chicken and veggies
  • snacks: Greek yogurt, Boom Chicka Pop, hard boiled eggs, mini brie and rosemary raisin crackers, cashew/pistachio nut mix
  • dinners: sauteed spinach/kale mixed with protein – mahi mahi burgers, ginger-marinated cod, chicken marinated with white wine & lemon

I’m going to try to include more hobbies (besides working out and watching TV) into my weekly routine.  This week, I want to:

  • read at least 30 minutes a day
  • blog at least three times
  • put together a photo book of my Hawaii pictures on Shutterfly (didn’t get to this last week)

One last note for today, because it is Easter Sunday.  I wrote this on MFP this morning, and I wanted to make sure to share it here, too:

On this day, where we celebrate belief and faith, I’m reminded to continue to believe in myself and have faith that I will achieve every goal I dream of. Enjoy the day!! “

Believing in myself and having faith that I can accomplish everything thing I dream has gotten me so far in this weight loss journey, and in life.  I hope that everyone reading this is able to find that same faith in themselves, because it is powerful.  If you celebrate Easter,  hope  you have a wonderful day filled with family and friends.  For those who don’t, I hope you have a terrific, relaxing Sunday doing something that makes you smile!

 

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 Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 46 was amazing – I was in Hawaii enjoying the sun, sand, and sights.  I’ve been writing separate posts about all of my adventures, from snorkeling in Hanauama Bay, hiking the Makapu’u Lighthouse Trail, and hiking Diamond Head. The house in Kaneohe had gorgeous views, and I loved watching the sunrise every morning. I have a few more blog posts to write about my trip, which I plan on doing today.  The trip was everything I’d hoped it would be, and was definitely a reward for all my hard work this past year with my weight loss.  I loved my time in Hawaii, and the only thing I’d change next time would be having more people to hang out with…maybe even a romantic travel partner.

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 185.0, which is a gain of 2 pounds this week, but a loss of 92 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 130 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 35 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds. (So much for thinking I’d lost 3 pounds when I weighed myself on the scale in Hawaii the other day. It just goes to show how varied scales can be). While I never like seeing a gain, I’m not upset by this one.  Not only did I get my period this week, but I was traveling, and the plane ride alone is enough to add some water weight gain.  I know these pounds will drop off quickly this week once I settle back into my normal routines.

So, my plan for the week is to do just that, get back to what I’ve been doing because it works.  A huge part of feeling on track for me is being organized, so I spent the day yesterday unpacking, grocery shopping, and sprucing up the house.

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I bought these placemats last year, and I love that they bring a bit of Hawaii into my dining area. Plus, they’re bright and springy. The mums add a pop of white that is crisp and happy.

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These roses are from my garden in the backyard, and I absolutely love the color. They’re a bright pink/coral color, and I think they’re stunning.

Part of the groceries I bought yesterday were the makings for green smoothies.  I haven’t had a green smoothie since my surgery.  At first the greens would have been too harsh for my newly-sleeved stomach.  Then I just got into the routine of having my protein shake in the morning, and you know how it goes when you get into a routine.  But after seeing Bobbi‘s food diaries on MFP, I remembered how much I love green smoothies. I added 1 cup of vanilla unsweetened almond milk, 1 1/2 scoops of Isopure zero carb vanilla protein powder, about 2 cups of this great organic baby kale & chou frise mix I got on sale at Safeway, and 1/2 a cup of mango chunks, along with a packet of Truvia.  The result? An amazing green smoothie, the color of which just reminds me of spring.  It was fresh, delicious, and really filling.  Plus, I love that I can get an additional serving or two of greens at the beginning of my day. Because I have to pull out the blender and making the green smoothie involves a bit more time, I don’t think I’ll make a green smoothie every day this week, but I do plan to have them at least a few times, and I think it’s going to be a regular weekend selection.

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Nutrition for this smoothie: 278 calories, 42g protein, 18g carbs, 4g fiber, 5g fat.

In terms of my workouts, the plan for this week is to make sure I fit in 5 Tone It Up workouts, along with cardio:
Sunday: long walk with Sofi at the LG Creek Trail
Monday: Lateral X elliptical + walk with Sofi / TIU: Santorini Bikini
Tuesday: flow yoga + walk with Sofi / TIU: Sunkissed Abs
Wednesday: early morning (4:45am!) hybrid elliptical / TIU: Bikini Booty Workout
Thursday: run/walk intervals + walk with Sofi / TIU: Set the Bar Routine (Beach Babe 2 DVD)
Friday: bike ride + walk with Sofi / TIU: Pura Vida Arms
Saturday: spinning + walk with Sofi

I have great meals planned this week, too:

  • breakfasts:protein shakes or green smoothies
  • lunches: salads w/ rotisserie chicken and veggies
  • snacks: Greek yogurt, Boom Chicka Pop, hard boiled eggs, mini brie and rosemary raisin crackers, cashew/almond/mango trail mix
  • dinners: sauteed spinach/kale mix with protein – mahi mahi burgers, ginger-marinated cod, chicken marinated with white wine & lemon

Plus, this week is going to be a fairly light one at work, which is nice after a week off.

I’m going to try to include more hobbies (besides working out and watching TV) into my weekly routine.  This week, I want to:

  • read at least 30 minutes a day
  • blog at least three times
  • put together a photo book of my Hawwaii pictures on Shutterfly

I had an amazing time on my vacation, but I’m really glad to be back home with so much to look forward to in the week ahead. It’s going to be a great one!

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 44 started off great because I spent hours on Sunday going through both closets in my house and going through every single item of clothing, deciding whether to donate or keep it.  My wardrobe is is organized and streamlined, which makes me feel so much better.  At work, I was able to complete all the grading that had piled up, which feels like a huge relief.  I ate well and logged everything. The one area that slipped a bit was in my workouts: I got some in, but didn’t do the Tone It Up strength sessions as often as I would’ve liked.  Now that everything is in order in the various areas of my life, the main thing I want to do is maintain it all.  Which means grading a bit at a time, keeping up with the housework/laundry, and setting aside the 1-1.5 hours a day to get my workouts in.  I know I can do it, I just need to set my mind to it.

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 183.0, which is a loss of 1.6 pounds this week,and a loss of 94 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 132 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 33 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds. I’m really happy with this week’s loss, especially because of the fact that I completed fewer workouts than I would’ve liked.  It really does go to show that weight loss is 70-80% food.  One thing that went really well for me this week was my water intake – I’ve found that making sure I have a water bottle or tumbler with me at all times makes all the difference.

One week from today I’ll have been in Hawaii for a day already!  I’m so excited about this trip, and I’m really looking at it as a reward for my hard work and determination.  It’s been over six years since I went on any sort of vacation.  Six years since I’ve been on a plane.  The last time I had to use a seatbelt extender, and that was when I was nowhere near my heaviest weight, in fact, I’d lost 50 pounds on that medically supervised fasting diet.  If I’m honest, I avoided any sort of vacation where I might need to fly because I didn’t want to have to deal with that scrunched-in feeling of spilling over into my neighbor’s seat. No to mention the look of dread on the seatmates’ faces when they saw me coming down the aisle.  I can’t wait to see how different it all is this time.

This week it’s all about making sure I have everything ready for Hawaii.  Yesterday I had a major shopping trip at Target, picking up travel sizes and a few more swim essentials.  Remember those Victoria Secrets bikini tops I’d bought?  They fit, and looked pretty good, but they were cut fairly small and showed more cleavage than I was comfortable with.  Especially for water sports like snorkeling or taking surf lessons.  I didn’t want to accidentally “pop out.”

2014-03-30 09.55.37See what I mean? I’ll definitely still wear it at the beach or walking around, but not when I’m doing something more physical.

So yesterday while I was at Target, I saw that they had swimwear on sale, and I found two other swim tops:

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This black bikini top has a lot more coverage, even though you may not be able to tell it in the photo, and that makes me feel more comfortable.  The tankini also offers good coverage, although I’m not sure whether or not I’m going to tuck it in.  What do you guys think?

The plan for this week is to make sure I fit in 5 Tone It Up workouts, along with cardio:
Sunday: Arc Trainer + run/walk intervals
Monday: run/walk intervals
Tuesday: hybrid elliptical
Wednesday: Arc Trainer
Thursday: hybrid recumbent bike
Friday: run/walk intervals

{I’ll update the toning routines as soon as the new weekly workout is posted on Toneitup.com}

As I mentioned, next week I’ll be in Hawaii, so I won’t be posting a weigh-in update.  It’s going to be really weird not having a scale there and not weighing myself everyday.  But I know I’m going to make great choices (more on that in another post), and get in plenty of activity, so I’m not worried about my weight.  Plus, taking a break from the scale while I’m on vacay seems right.  I will write a Sunday Smiles post, though, because I’m sure I’ll already have lots to share.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 43 was a bit overwhelming, if I’m honest.  Things are really busy at work, and I felt like there weren’t enough hours in the day.  I still managed to eat well and to get my cardio workouts in, but I did let a few toning workouts slip by.  This next week is going to be just as busy, so I’m going to do my best to set things up today so that I don’t feel like I have no time for everything I have to do. Feeling organized is huge for me – it make all the difference in the world.

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 184.6, which is a loss of 1.4 pounds this week, and a loss of 92.4 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 130.4 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 34.6 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds. I’m pleased with this week’s loss, especially considering I didn’t do many of the toning exercises that I’ve been doing 5 times a week for the past couple of months.  My eating has been great, though, and I did pretty well with my water intake, too.

More of the clothes I ordered for my Hawaiian vacation came in this week, and every single item looks as good or better than I’d hoped.  I don’t mean to sound conceited when I write that, but this is a whole new thing for me.  In the past when I ordered clothes online, it was always hit and miss as far as how the clothes would look.  Now it’s a whole different story because I have a whole different body.  It really is an amazing feeling.

Yesterday the high school I attended had an Alumnae Day of Service at a local charity, which fit in well with my volunteering for Lent.  One of my good friends attended, and I had a blast meeting a bunch of new friends.  There’s something about being an alumna from my school – we have an instant bond because of the shared experience of going to an all-girls Catholic school.  And not just because of wearing that plaid skirt; because of the values we were taught, the education we received, and the spirit of friendship that we formed.  It truly was an amazing experience, and I’m so grateful to my parents for sacrificing so much so that my sister and I could attend the school.

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A shot of a new friend and me sorting apples.

A great group shot of all of the alums who volunteered.

A great group shot of all of the alums who volunteered. The lady in the sun hat is in charge of food sorting at the center, and was our supervisor for the day.

This week the enormous changes I’ve undergone have become more evident to me.  In looking at photos I’ve been in with groups of friends lately (last weekend, this Friday night, and again yesterday) I can see that I’m a completely different person.  I’m not worried about how my body is going to look in pictures, because I know how hard I’ve worked.  It’s so freeing to just smile and capture the moment, rather than worry so much about what angle the camera is being held at. I see myself and I am proud of the lady being reflected back at me. A new confidence is emerging, and I am loving it!

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 42 started with a 5K and ended with a Bay Area WLS meetup, with lost of busy days in between.  Even though so many of the workdays were long ones, I didn’t miss any of my workouts.  That fact alone is something I’m so proud of, and speaks to how much I’ve transformed my life.  In the past, long work days would have offered an easy excuse to skip workouts, but now they just give me a way to shake off a stressful day.  Just like that photo above, I really love working out and miss it when I have to take a rest day.

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 186.0, which is a loss of 2.6 pounds this week, and a loss of 91 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 129 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 36 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds. I’m really happy with this week’s loss.  The first pound came off right away when I did my daily weigh-in on Monday; the other 1.6 came off a little at a time as the week continued.  I’ve been feeling really strong all week – not just in my weight loss, but in my whole attitude and demeanor – I’m loving life!

One fun thing that also served as an NSV this week was shopping for Hawaii.  I’ve picked up just about all the clothes I think I’ll need: bikini tops, board shorts, sundresses, capri pants, and late yesterday afternoon – tanks.  Shopping these days is obviously so much more fun than shopping in the past, and I can’t wait to see how little room all of my clothes take up in the suitcase!  In the past when I’d go on trips, my clothes would take up so much room because there was so much material.  I’m super excited that this time around I’ll be able to fit everything into one suitcase, with room.  Although, don’t get me wrong, I’m an over-packer, so I’ll still be filling that suitcase, but this time it will be because of all the outfits, not because of how big the clothes are.

Today my friend Di and I are heading to a local lake county park to volunteer at a cleanup.  This is part of my Lenten Sacrifice, and I’m looking forward to it.  The weather has been absolutely gorgeous here – 80 degrees and sunny – and today will be no exception.  Plus, it will be a great way to burn some calories as I’m giving back.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Spring has (almost) sprung! Which means that the weather is turning warmer, the days are getting longer, and fitting in outdoor activities is a whole lot easier. Spring is a time of renewal, and in the spring of 2014  I’m living my life in full bloom! Now that I’m in the home stretch of my weight loss journey, all the pounds I lose this spring are just like extra petals on a flower, making my life just a bit more beautiful. I want to enjoy each day of this season, soaking in the sunshine, blue skies, and happiness. Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. My Sunday progress updates will be called Super Spring Weigh-Ins.

Week 41 was a busy one, but I’ve been working hard to make sure that I keep everything in balance.  I’m not willing to let a workout slip by or to make poor food choices, so staying organized is even more important than ever.  All week I’ve been looking forward to the Mardi Gras Madness 5K that I’m doing with Tinkerbell and Newjojie (one of my MFP peeps). Newjojie is actually driving two hours to meet Tink and me and do the race with us, which is so exciting.

bilbl_scale.jpg So, what did the scale show?!

When I weighed in this morning, I was 188.6, which is a loss of 1 pound this week, and a loss of 88.4 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 126.4 pounds from my highest weight!! I have 38.6 pounds to go to my ultimate goal weight of 150 pounds. I am so proud of today’s weight loss, even though it’s “only” a pound. After my 4-pound loss 2 weeks ago, I stayed the same last week and most of this week the scale hadn’t moved. But clothes are fitting looser & my sizes are getting smaller. Still, I love seeing a loss on the scale, especially a hard-won one like this.

In the past, I would’ve been so frustrated to see the scale stall for almost a week and a half, but I’ve learned so much about weight loss and how my body reacts through these past few years.  I’m not gonna lie, I wasn’t thrilled to see the scale hovering around the same numbers even though I was working out hard and eating on plan, but I didn’t panic.  I realized that I’ve lost over 125 pounds, and my body just needed a bit of a break.  I didn’t immediately try to switch everything I’ve been doing (as I used to do so often in the past).  I just stayed the course, kept doing what I know works, and had confidence that sooner or later the scale would move again.  And really, one week of maintaining isn’t a bad thing; so many of the people in my weight loss support group and on MFP have stalls that last much longer.  The body is really an amazing and mysterious thing sometimes, and it reminds me that having faith in myself and what I’m doing will see me through.

This week’s workout plan:

Monday: Walk Sofi + TIU: SunKissed Abs & MaliBooty
Tuesday: run/walk intervals + TIU: TBA Toning Routine (they post it Tuesday morning)
Wednesday: Recumbent bike + TIU TLC (Tone, Lift, & Cinch) Workout
Thursday: run/walk intervals + TIU: Bikini Arms (it’s on their Beach Babe 2 DVD, which I downloaded)
Friday: Spinning + Kettlebells w/ Katrina & Spankin’ Booty Routine
Saturday: cardio rest day + Flat, Fit & Sexy Abs
Sunday: I’m volunteering for a park cleanup, so I’ll burn lots of calories that way.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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reverb13-blog-button Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb13: Reverb is a way to reflect on the past year and project into the next year with a prompt a day for 31 days.  December is the perfect time to reflect on 2013 and start to create intentions for 2014.

Day 22: Is the battle worth the struggle?
Uphill | What uphill battle did you keep fighting and fighting in 2013?  Are you going to keep fighting or let it go?  Why?

This post can practically write itself.  The battle that I fought and am WINNING is with my weight.  I’ve been overweight most of my life, and obese since my mid-20s.  After years of unsuccessfully trying to lose weight, I made the decision to get weight loss surgery.  It was both a blessing and a curse that Kaiser required that I lose over 10% of my weight before I could qualify for surgery.  I also had to quit smoking.  I gave up cigs pretty easily, but gained over 20 pounds in the process, and realized I was giving into emotional eating.  My weight skyrocketed to 315 pounds until I finally just made the decision that enough was enough.  When I finally refused to keep making the myriad of excuses I’d become so accustomed to, I started losing weight.  It wasn’t easy, but I just kept at it and didn’t give up.
By April I’d met the surgery requirement after 2 1/2 years of battling, and from there I knew I’d win the war. I had my surgery on May 20, 2013, and it’s been all “downhill” from there.

I’ve lost a total of 112.8 pounds, and I’m not stopping until I reach every one of my goals. It’s been a fantastic year, and I know 2014 is going to be even better!

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I’ve been wanting to write a post for the past day, but when I sit down to write, I don’t know exactly how to put what I’m feeling into words.  I keep using works like surreal and amazing, but even those seem to pale in comparison with the experience of my heart beating out of my chest every time I think about the fact that my life is going to change in less than 6 days.

So many people have asked me if I’m nervous or scared or worried about the surgery, and I can honestly say I’m not.  Not even one bit.  Sure, I realize there are risks, even death, but I am certain that’s not my fate.  I know it like I know my name.  The possibility of pain doesn’t faze me, either.  I’ve always had a high tolerance for pain, and I’m in good condition for someone of my weight, so I don’t think that will be much of a factor.

When I used to think of weight loss surgery, before I imagined it as an option for me, I focused on all of the restrictions to the post-op person’s diet.  Back when gastric bypass was the only surgery that anyone ever talked about.  I was so concerned about what “they” couldn’t eat, and couldn’t imagine my life with severe food limitations.  Today, after over 2 1/2 years of research, I know that there will be very few foods that are completely off limits.  Sure, there will be foods that I only enjoy on rare occasions, but I also realize that my life will be about more than food.  It will be full of all the new activities that I’ll have more energy to pursue, and all the people who I’ll have the opportunities to meet.  I’m not at all concerned about what I won’t be able to eat, but rather, excited by all that I will be able to participate in.

So I guess tonight I’m in a really peaceful, reflective mood.  It’s been a long, unsteady road along this weight loss path, but on Monday as I wake up from surgery, I’ll take that deep breath and I will start on the exciting new leg of my journey.

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I have fantastic news to share with you guys! This morning I went to the Kaiser Bariatric program because my scale had showed that I’d lost the required weight to qualify for my “5 lbs to go” marker!!!!

This meant that I had to verify the weight on the Kaiser scale, and then go through the psychological evaluation. I was WAY more nervous about making the scale weight than I was about “passing” the psych eval.

The evaluation was basically just a series of questions and some hypothetical scenarios to see if I had changed my lifestyle and to make sure that I had a realistic idea of what to expect from the weight loss surgery. Since Kaiser has all of my records over the past several years, the psychologist knows just how long my journey has been.  I mentioned to her that it had taken me far, far longer than most people who are able to do it in 6 months, and she said that there’s no specific time that’s right for everyone.  She looked through my chart and said that while I struggled for quite some time, I was obviously working on the underlying issues that were blocking me from completing the process.  It was clear to her that I was ready for this new lifestyle.  She made me feel great about myself and the struggles that I’ve been through.  The only note the psychologist made was that I needed to stop chewing gum and switch to mints. I didn’t realize that chewing gum can lead to air bubbles in the stomach, which can have the same sort of complications that drinking carbonated beverages brings. Now that I know, I’m going to make the quick switch to mints. Because I’ve noticed that as I’ve been losing weight my breath has gotten really bad, and I don’t want my poor students (or anyone else I come into contact with) to have to experience that, I’m going to make sure to have Altoids with me at all times.

bilbl_scale.jpgBut to get back to the scale….gosh, doesn’t it always come down to the scale for me?

With my clothes on, on the Bariatric department scale, I was 1 pound over what they required. {sigh} Which means that before my completed file can be put on the surgeon’s desk for review, I have to have the 1 lb loss documented by Kaiser. So, I’m going to make sure to lose 2 lbs and go to my local Kaiser, get weighed in, and then have them document it into my chart. Then I call the Bariatric center back and let them know that I’ve made the weight loss requirement. I plan to make this before the end of this week.

It takes about two weeks for the surgeon to review my chart, and then it can be up to 8 more weeks for my surgery date. I think that’s the hardest part – not knowing exactly when the surgery will be. But, I’m just going to figure that I’ll be able to see out the school year and I’ll be having the surgery in early June, after school is over. It’s not ideal, because I’d like to have the full 8 weeks of summer vacation to maximize my weight loss (and not have to use 4 weeks of that time for recovery), but it is what it is.

I think of people like Scale Warfare, who didn’t have any sort of summer vacation, and who lost her weight, worked out, and changed her life, all while working full time. If she can do it, so can I.

Everyone I’ve told about making it to my first goal has been so excited for me. I have amazing friends and family, all of whom are as thrilled as if it was happening to themselves. Those are people who really love me, and that makes me feel so special. All of this feel so surreal, as if it’s all happening to someone else. I’ve wanted this day to come for so long, wished for it, willed it to happen, and now that it’s here, I’m sort of in a daze about it all. I know that once my weight loss is finalized and on the books, I’ll feel better.

But for now, I do want to celebrate all that I’ve accomplished. I’ve made amazing strides recently, in both my body but also in my mindset, and I’m incredibly proud of all I’ve been able to do. I can’t wait to see where I go next!!

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Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb12: celebrating the successes of 2012, honoring the challenges of 2012, and planting the seeds for a rich and rewarding 2013. December is the perfect time to reflect on the year that has passed and start to manifest dreams for the new year.

Day 10What was the greatest risk you took in 2012? What was the outcome??

As boring as it sounds, I really didn’t take many risks in 2012.  I’d say I stood the course on most of my endeavors, and just put my nose to the grindstone and kept it moving.

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This sounds so unlike me, because I’m bold, extroverted, and very passionate, so I feel compelled to make a list of risks I want to take in 2013:

1.  Finally undergo weight loss surgery
2.  Take a trip by myself, even if it’s just a couple of hours away.  Explore a “new” city on my own and stay somewhere overnight by myself just for fun.
3.  In the latter part of 2013, sign up on an online dating site and go on no fewer than 5 dates.

Not a bad challenge, eh?  I guess you’ll just have to keep tuned in to see if the risks will offer great rewards. I know I’m excited to see what comes from them.

What risk did you undertake in 2012?

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