This morning I finally got on the scale. For the first time in over a month, I think. And while the numbers I saw on the display weren’t shocking because I know I’ve been sabotaging my weight loss by not counting points, not attending WW meetings, and basically not caring about what I was eating for the last 3 weeks, I was still a bit surprised by the number.
Today’s weigh in was conducted on my home scale wearing something similar to what I’d wear at a WW meeting. The reason I didn’t head to a meeting is sort of petty, and I may explain it in another post. Basically, I think I’m going to find a new meeting and I’m going to use this week to do that. I know that as soon as summer vacation hits I’m going to start going on Friday mornings, which to me is the perfect time. (If only school started at 11am on Fridays, then I could always make this meeting). I’m think I’m going to choose a Friday afternoon meeting, if I can find one. I’ll definitely let you know what I end up with. But I do want you to know that I will be weighing myself in some way once a week and I will be logging on WW.com several times a day to track my food, and I will continue to read the weekly materials that they post online. (Until I find a meeting time that works at a center I like). The point is, I’m still holding myself accountable, which is something I haven’t done in a over a month.
Not to make excuses (but I guess they kinda are), I do have my period and I did go to my great uncle’s surprise 86th birthday party yesterday. I didn’t eat much at the party at all, but oh boy did I drink wine! Anyway, without further ado:
I weigh 275.4. That’s a gain of 11.8 pounds since February.
But I’m not going to beat myself up for it. What’s the point? This is my new starting place, and I’m moving forward (or should I say downward) from here.
As Lisa pointed out in her comment the other day, I feel so much stronger, healthier, and more athletic than I ever have at any point in the past when I’ve seen these sorts of numbers on the scale. In the last year or so I’ve seen ups and downs on the scale, but one thing that has remained fairly constant is that I now love activity and movement. I like seeing how far I can push my body, and as long as that activity isn’t causing me pain, I’m going to continue it and strive to do the best I can at it. That has to count for something.
Actually, I think that counts for a lot. I’m a different person in terms of the way I feel about myself than I was last year. The recent setbacks I’ve experienced with TNT have really challenged me to rise to the occasion and learn to listen to my body.
The other interesting thing is, even though I weigh about what I did last year when I started the fasting program, I wear much smaller sizes than I did then. I was wearing anywhere from a 26 to a 28 in pants and a 22/24 in tops. Now I’m wearing 22/24 or 24 in pants and 18/20 in tops. Which must mean that while the numbers on the scale are only slightly better, I must have gained muscle or lost inches, because otherwise why would these smaller sizes fit? (And I’m not one to wear tight clothes, believe me). This is a very nice NSV.
So here I am again. Recommitting to weight loss. And rather than feeling angry or upset at myself, I’m actually encouraged and happy. I’m looking forward to doing it right this time. Wish me luck!
Bella on the Beach 
I want to wish you Good Luck! As someone who also stepped on the scale this morning and was less than pleased with the results, I am inspired by your attitude and perspective! It is wonderful that you are enjoying activity and commending yourself on being stronger, healthier, and happy. Yeah! Thanks for sharing! Keep it up!
I’m so happy that you not only recognize what needs TO BE done, but that you also recognize the many, many, many good things that you HAVE done. That’s huge. HUGE! And that attitude will likely see you achieving long term success in getting it ALL done.
Take some time to measure yourself since this is a new starting point for you! It is totally worth the extra effort, especially the weeks when either the scale doesnt move OR it moves in the wrong direction. For me it feels like a battle to get each pound to come off, and if it werent for the advise of a commenter reminding me to weigh myself, I never would have!
Yay for going back to meetings!
Measuring is a really good idea! I’ve never been one to do that, but it will be a good non-scale way to see my progress. Thanks for the tip!
A very brave and honest post. I’m starting over too, so I’ll be reading along. 🙂
Awesome attitude and hooray for the smaller sizes! Glad you are refocused and ready to get back on plan. Hope you find a good meeting that fits you.
You have just the right attitude. I know you’ll do what needs to be done to take good care of yourself and reach your goals. I’m wishing you all of the best, of course!
Congrats on the NSV too! That’s definitely a good one!
Good for you sweetheart! Starting now you are back to being really kind to yourself:)
Suggestion? Start weight watchers as if its the first day of the first time. Get out your measuring spoons, dust off the food scale, read over your materials from week one, re-determine your points and open up a tracker.
It will help the On your mark get set GO mentality!!
xo