For the month of December, I’ll be participating in Reverb 10. Each day gives a new prompt, which is a chance to reflect on 2010 and manifest what’s next in 2011.
December 17 – Lesson Learned
What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)
Narrowing this down to just one thing was really difficult, because this blog (and your reader comments) allow me to learn so much about myself on an almost daily basis.
I guess the thing that I had hoped I knew about myself that I’ve actually shown myself to be true is that I am a really caring person. And I’m not saying that to make myself sound wonderful. It’s one of those things that you hope about yourself, but you’re never sure is true until you’re faced with the situations to prove it. And I’m happy that I’ve had this fact confirmed in a few ways recently.
Since I’ve lived by myself for so long, I was the only person I had to worry about most of the time. I didn’t have to answer to anyone but myself, and I was able to come and go as I pleased. Stay out as late as I wanted. You get the drill – I was a self-sufficient, independent woman who enjoyed her single life.
But so often I felt like something was missing, and so in June when Lulu finally arrived, it was a huge transition for me to make – to be responsible for another life. To worry about how late I was out, when I’d get home, how long I’d been gone, etc. It meant that I had veterinary bills to pay, flea medications to buy, and dog food to stock up on. But along with the “have to” also came the “get to.” Because I get to come home to this most amazing creature who thinks the sun rises and sets with me. Who depends on me for everything and whom I love more than I thought possible. I know I’ve become a better person because I’ve had her in my life.
And in 2011, I’m going to be able to take this caring for someone besides myself to a whole new level. Beginning the week after next, I’m going to have my sister and my nieces in my life on a daily basis. In order to help my sister save money on daycare and to be there to support her, I told her I’d watch the girls (ages 8 and 3 1/2) three days a week from 3:30-6:30. Which means a significant lifestyle change for me, but it also means that I’m going to get so much back from them. Their faces lit up when they heard we’d be spending so much time together on a regular basis, which made me feel great. I’m really looking forward to getting to know my nieces on a much deeper level, and vice versa. I’m looking forward to having a major impact on their lives. And I’m looking forward to being changed for the better because of them.