Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb13: Reverb is a way to reflect on the past year and project into the next year with a prompt a day for 31 days. December is the perfect time to reflect on 2013 and start to create intentions for 2014.
Day 3 – Brave
What was the bravest thing you did in 2013?
Some might say that it took a lot of courage to have weight loss surgery back in May, but I would disagree. That was something I’d wanted for so long, that I’d worked toward for over 2 1/2 years. I had no worries, no doubts that anything would go wrong. I wasn’t nervous the day of or even as they led me into surgery. So I wouldn’t say that my surgery was the bravest thing I did.
This may sound silly, but I’d say that signing up for Match.com was the bravest thing I’ve done in 2013. And I just did it on Sunday.
I haven’t put myself out there in the dating world in over 3 years because for the longest time, I wasn’t attracting the types of guys I wanted to date. My philosophy was, “if I wouldn’t date him at my goal weight, I’m not going to date him now.” I preferred being single to settling, and I still do.
But as much as I love my life exactly as it is, there are those times when I want to cuddle on the couch with someone special. Someone to take romantic drives with. Someone to whisk me away on spontaneous weekends. Someone to share intimate moments with. You get the idea.
The bravery comes in because I’m putting myself out there and hoping that “Mr. Right” and I are able to connect. I’m not at my goal weight, but I’m proud of how I’ve transformed, and I hope that someone else can recognize that. (It seems a few gents like the curves my profile photos display). I’m not sure how to go about this whole thing, and I’m definitely not leading with the fact that I’ve lost over 100 pounds (that’s something I’ll share after a few dates, if it goes that far). But it is fun to see who’s out there. So far there have been a few interesting prospects, but it’s far too early to really know. I’m being hopeful. I’m daring to dream a bit.
So wish me luck!