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It’s summertime! Which means that life is a lot easier – my schedule is free, healthy fruits and veggies are plentiful, and I have nothing but time to work on this goal. Success is practically guaranteed – all I need to do is follow through with my actions. My re-assessment meeting with my surgeon was on Friday, June 8th, which just so happened to also be my last day of school before summer vacation, making Fridays the perfect day to weigh-in. So throughout the summer, I’ll be giving Friday progress updates called Successful Summer Weigh-Ins.

This morning I got back on the scale, after skipping it last week.  That in and of itself was an important step, because avoiding the scale can lead to denial, which can lead to loss of momentum and weight gain.  If you recall, Tuesday evening I went to a girls’ night out event that my high school was holding for its alumnae.  It was held at a local restaurant that is know for its Swirls – a potent drink that combines frozen margarita and sangria.  I loved hanging out with these girls who I’ve been friends with since high school, and since it’s a fundraiser for the current students who are on scholarship, all those swirls go for a good cause.

I know what you might be thinking, “why would you go to a high-caloric event like this one when you didn’t do anything special for your birthday?”  And my answer is that’s exactly why I went.  We’d all been planning on going for months, and this was part of the reason why I didn’t want to make a big deal about my birthday.  It’s the only event in the next several months, and frankly, I needed to live a little.  Moderation.

I’m glad that I went because it was a really fun night, as I knew it would be.  I logged my food and drinks for the evening, and worked hard throughout the week to burn off the extra calories.  I had an especially fun time at the SharQui Belly Dance class I took on Wednesday evening.

{Okay, Bella, that’s all good and well, but what we really want to know is how you did on the scale}. Right?!

Today I weighed in at 303.6, which means I am up 1 pound from when I unofficially weighed myself on Sunday (after skipping the weigh in on Friday), but I’m down 0.8 from the gain I had in Week 4. Either way, I have 22.6 lbs to go to reach my pre-surgery goal. I’m actually feeling good about today’s weigh in because it means that even though I had an indulgent night on Tuesday, my eating and exercise throughout the week were enough to help me keep it in check.

What I don’t want to do is lose steam at this stage of the summer.  I have 4 more summer weigh-ins.  Actually, the 4th weigh in will occur on August 17th, the day I have to go back for our “Teacher Workday.” Which indicates the end of summer, because school starts back up the following Monday.  I want to take advantage of this last month of summer to get in all of the exercise that is going to be more difficult to fit in once my schedule changes.  I’m not sure that I’ll be able to make the goal weight by August 17th, because that would be 5.65 lbs/week which seems like a reach, but I am sure that I can get darn close.  And I am very confident that I can achieve my goal by August 31st, which is 6 weeks from now (a rate of 3.76 lbs/week).

My food has been great, if somewhat routine, so I’m going to look for a few new recipes to keep things interesting. I’m going to keep up the good work on this front.

Now that I’ve joined the community center, I have access to those other classes I was looking forward to taking: beginner’s mat Pilates, Zumba with my favorite instructor, SharQui Belly Dance, and Hot Hula (once the teacher returns from vacay). This coming week I plan to take those classes, continue with yoga, add in swimming and bike riding, along with Sofi’s walks, of course. Working out is the key to my success – it keeps me busy: avoiding the boredom which can lead to overeating, burns calories, helps me feel great physically, gives me a strong sense of accomplishment, amps up my water intake, and makes the summer fun.

Until next week, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful weekend!

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It’s summertime! Which means that life is a lot easier – my schedule is free, healthy fruits and veggies are plentiful, and I have nothing but time to work on this goal. Success is practically guaranteed – all I need to do is follow through with my actions. My re-assessment meeting with my surgeon was on Friday, June 8th, which just so happened to also be my last day of school before summer vacation, making Fridays the perfect day to weigh-in. So throughout the summer, I’ll be giving Friday progress updates called Successful Summer Weigh-Ins.


This week was strange. I had a great week, but with my birthday on Monday and then the 4th of July on Wednesday, things were a bit off for me.  My food was ok, but I did have more calories than normal on Wednesday at the BBQ.  All good food, but just maybe too much of it.  The other days I ate fine, but I didn’t have the same “pep in my step,” especially in terms of workouts.  Last weekend I didn’t workout at all really, other than taking Sofi for a walk.  I just wasn’t very motivated for some reason.  Monday started off well with 90 minutes of bikram on my birthday, but then I just fell flat Tuesday-Thursday.  I had every intention of going to Zumba or getting in some other workout, but each day something happened that through a kink in my plans and then through me off schedule.  Like I said, it was a weird week.

{Okay, Bella, that’s all good and well, but what we really want to know is how you did on the scale}. Right?!

Today I weighed in at 304.4, which means I gained 2 pounds this week, so I have 23.4 lbs to go to reach my pre-surgery goal. I’m not going to freak out about this.  Mother Nature gave me a bday gift on Monday with TOM, I ate a big meal on Wednesday, and really only exerted myself on Monday.  No big surprises.  Even my water intake was “just okay” this week.  It was just an off week, and while I’m not excusing myself, or giving up on my goals, I’m not going to get crazy or discouraged.  What good would that do?

And by walking, I mean, “walking the talk.”

Which is exactly what I did this morning.  Right after I got off the scale, I quickly whipped up a berry green smoothie, grabbed a cup of coffee, picked up my gear, and headed to a 9am Bikram yoga class.  Today’s class was phenomenal.  A different teacher than Monday, and I’m not sure if it was her, or the fact that this was my second day this week of practicing, or a combo of both, but I could already see a marked improvement in my ability with the poses.

I still have to make some major modifications because of my weight, for example, with #6 you’re supposed to kick your foot into your hand and hold your ankle, but I can’t do that at all, so I just lift my leg and hold my arm as if the ankle was in my  hand.  Not perfect, but still attempting the posture.  The same thing for #19.  I really can’t do #20 or #21 at all, and for today, I just laid in Savasana (corpse pose).  I’m going to ask about a modification for those poses, because I don’t want to sit poses out just because my body can’t get into the perfect form.  They say #23, the Rabbit pose is one of the toughest, and I can’t do it at all…yet. As class ended, I felt good about what I did because my body got into the poses more quickly and with more fluidity than just 4 days ago.  Progress!  (I also ran into my mom’s cousin, MM, whom I have always looked up to.  She’s 10 years older than me, and when I was younger I thought she was the coolest.  Seeing her at yoga  today and getting to practice next to her was a fun experience).

Directly after yoga I headed to the pool to cool down.  I have been leaving the class a sweaty mess.  I’ve always been somewhat sweaty after a bikram class but this week I was literally dripping with sweat and my clothes were soaked through, top and bottoms.  I wonder if the vitamins I’ve been taking are helping my body sweat better?  Anyway, I was gross, hot, and just wanted to cool off, so I was so glad I took the time to pack my swimsuit, etc. with me so that I could quickly change, jump in the pool, and do a few laps.  About 20 minutes worth, which was nice.

All told, I burned 1769 calories today – halfway to 1 pound!  I’m not just saying that I’m going to do better this week, I’m actually taking the actions that will insure it.  Since I spent quite a bit on the 1-month yoga pass, I want to plenty of those classes, but knowing that I would get burnt out on all yoga all the time, I also want to keep swimming, doing Zumba, and fitting in some bike rides.  So, here’s my workout plan for July:

Sunday: Yin Yoga, walk Sofi
Monday: Bikram, swimming, walk Sofi
Tuesday: Bikram, swimming, walk Sofi
Wednesday: Zumba, walk Sofi
Thursday: off/ bike ride, walk Sofi
Friday: Bikram, swimming, walk Sofi
Saturday: Zumba, gentle yoga, walk Sofi (bike ride in the late afternoon)

It seems like a lot, but I think it’s doable.  It’s the sort of intensity I’ve been craving, and it’s high time I bring it!  I think it’s a nice balance of yoga and other workouts that I love to do.  And I think it will help me achieve my goals – on and off the scale.

Until next week, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful weekend!

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I first wrote this post about birthdays back in 2007, and since today is my 41st birthday, I thought I’d share an excerpt with you.

Growing up, I loved having my birthday in the summer because it meant I didn’t have to go to school on my birthday. Sure, I missed out on cupcakes with the class, but I got fireworks. I think in that trade-off, I got the better deal, don’t you? A summer birthday meant that most people were more relaxed and ready to have fun.

My parents always made birthdays a big deal. Bigger than Christmas, because it was YOUR special day. My sister and I would get lots of presents, sure, but the best part about our birthdays was that the whole day felt like a huge celebration. The birthday girl got to decide what we had for dinner that night — whether it was a favorite recipe that Mom made or a restaurant you wanted to try out. Since my birthday fell in the summer, we usually took some kind of day trip for my birthday. We could go anywhere I wanted to — San Francisco, Santa Cruz, a movie at the mall, whatever. Birthdays are usually celebrations, but in my family, they were like our own special holiday.

When I got old enough to work, I always took my birthday off, because it was my special day. As a teenager, I’d usually do the family thing in the morning and earlier part of the day and then hang out with friends later. Or, we’d all go out to dinner, my parents’ treat.

Birthdays are always a time of reflection for me.  I take stock of the past year of life and celebrate my successes and see what I can learn from the disappointments.  And I usually celebrate it with food and drink alongside family and friends.

But not this year.

This year I told everyone that I didn’t want to go out for drinks or to a special dinner for my birthday.  A few of the people were surprised that I was saying this, but once I explained my thinking, they understood.  This summer my priority is weight loss.  I’ve been serious about it in my actions, and just because today is my birthday, I don’t want to blow all of my progress.  One day of indulging can throw me off for an entire week, as evidenced by the Father’s Day BBQ I had a few weeks ago.  This time of year is tough because my dad’s birthday is a week before mine, then mine, then 4th of July, then my niece’s birthday.  Whew!  Lots of celebrating.

So I asked everyone if we could do non-food-related things to celebrate and keep it all a little more low key.  Plus this year isn’t one that ends in a 0 or a 5, so there’s no real need to go nuts with the parties. I’m still going to celebrate:

  • I had iced tea and opened presents with my parents on Sunday.
  • I decided a great gift to myself would be to start today with a 9am bikram yoga class, with my friend Ani. (I’m also buying an unlimited 1-month pass for myself, and the plan is to start my day with Bikram at 9am as many days as possible for the month of July).
  • Afterward, I think I’ll head for a dip in the pool to cool off and refresh after all that sweaty bikram.
  • This afternoon my sister and one of my good friends are taking me to get pedicures. Lots of ways to be social without including food and drinks.
  • Tonight I want to keep things simple – take a leisurely walk with Sofi, read a great book in the backyard, and enjoy the evening quietly at home.

Because if I can stick to my goals this year I could almost be at my goal weight by my next birthday. How amazing will that be?!!

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It’s summertime! Which means that life is a lot easier – my schedule is free, healthy fruits and veggies are plentiful, and I have nothing but time to work on this goal. Success is practically guaranteed – all I need to do is follow through with my actions. My re-assessment meeting with my surgeon was on Friday, June 8th, which just so happened to also be my last day of school before summer vacation, making Fridays the perfect day to weigh-in. So throughout the summer, I’ll be giving Friday progress updates called Successful Summer Weigh-Ins.

This week I wanted to try to see what happened if I cut back a bit on my grains at dinner a few of the nights. So Monday-Wednesday I didn’t have any sort of grain and you know what? I didn’t miss it….much. I think I started out on Monday missing the idea of having a grain at dinner more than I actually missed the grain. Because I planned meals that were filling enough, the grain wasn’t a factor in my feeling of satiety. For example, Wednesday night I had TJ’s ginger marinated cod with a side of sauteed zucchini and summer squash, and I was really satisfied. In fact, I felt full enough that I didn’t even think of the “missing” grain at all. I did end up having some quinoa last night because I had it left over from Sunday and I didn’t want it to go bad before I ate it. The scale didn’t move from yesterday to today, though, which tells me it is probably better to skip grains at dinner, unless I’ve done a fairly major workout that day. Which is just fine, since I wanted to keep my plan balanced and in moderation.

{Okay, Bella, that’s all good and well, but what we really want to know is how you did on the scale}. Right?!

Today I weighed in at 302.4, which means I lost 3.8 pounds this week, so I have 21.4 lbs to go to reach my pre-surgery goal. I’m thrilled with this steady weight loss, and I think the combination of eating well, cutting back on evening grains, and working out helped. The total for three weeks is 12.6 lbs lost, which is excellent. I’m really proud of what I’ve done so far this summer.

My first weight loss reward is scheduled for 15 lbs (5%), and I’ve decided to get a shellac manicure. Now that I’m taking Biotin every day, my nails are growing and getting stronger. Since normal manicures don’t last for me (I chip the polish within a day), I know that the shellac is the way to go. Yesterday when I got my hair done I made an appointment to get the shellac mani on July 12, which gives me more than enough time to lose the 15 lbs. In fact, I’m sure I’ll be closer to 20 lbs off by then. That’s so cool to think about!!

The week ahead could be a challenging one with my birthday and the 4th of July, but I’ve decided that this year, nothing is more important to me than losing this weight, so I’m making that the priority. I’m following it with my actions and choices. More on that in Monday’s birthday post.

Until next week, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful weekend!

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It’s summertime! Which means that life is a lot easier – my schedule is free, healthy fruits and veggies are plentiful, and I have nothing but time to work on this goal. Success is practically guaranteed – all I need to do is follow through with my actions. My re-assessment meeting with my surgeon was on Friday, June 8th, which just so happened to also be my last day of school before summer vacation, making Fridays the perfect day to weigh-in. So throughout the summer, I’ll be giving Friday progress updates called Successful Summer Weigh-Ins.

This week my main goal was to remain consistent in my efforts that I put in place last week, because that’s the area in which I need the most improvement. The one hurdle I faced this week was Father’s Day. I hosted a BBQ at my house, and even though I had healthy choices and ate in moderation, I did have a planned indulgence in two Blue Moon summer wheat beers. Monday the scale had me up a bit, but I didn’t freak out and just kept with the program. I am proud of the workouts I’ve been getting in because I’m not only burning serious calories, but I’m enjoying myself. It’s been so fun to be able to keep busy and workout at the same time.

{Okay, Bella, that’s all good and well, but what we really want to know is how you did on the scale}. Right?!

Today I weighed in at 306.2, which means I lost 0.4 pounds this week, meaning I have just slightly over 25 lbs to go to reach my pre-surgery goal. Now, losing 0.4 isn’t awesome, but it is a loss. And since the scale had been up the first few days of the week in response to the aforementioned BBQ, I’m happy with this. The total for two weeks is 8.8 lbs lost, which is a wonderful average. I can’t complain about that.

The plan for the coming week is to do more of the same. My workouts/fitness have been excellent, and I want to continue swimming, walking, and taking Zumba class, but I’m also going to add in riding my beach cruiser. It’s been far too long since I’ve gone out and had a long bike ride, so that’s one of the main goals for next week. In terms of food, I had a great week, but I am going to cut down on my carbs a bit at dinner. So instead of eating 3/4 of a cup of quinoa or brown rice, I’m going to have a 1/2 cup or skip the grain completely at dinner.

The idea limiting the carbs at dinner isn’t new, but it got reinforced when I saw this pin about Bob Harper’s The Skinny Rules:

Source:Pinterest

 

Most of these are rules that I’ve already incorporated into my lifestyle, but #7 is something that I want to try out this next week. I’m going to take this as no grains after lunch, because the carbs found in veggies are perfectly fine, to me. It’s an easy thing to do, and I want to see how cutting some of the carbs later in the day affects my weight loss. My guess is that it will improve. I’m not going to be militant and say absolutely no carbs at dinner, but I think I’ll try this 4-5 out of the 7 days. What do you think of The Skinny Rules?

Until next week, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful weekend!

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It’s summertime!  Which means that life is a lot easier – my schedule is free, healthy fruits and veggies are plentiful, and I have nothing but time to work on this goal.  Success is practically guaranteed – all I need to do is follow through with my actions.  My re-assessment meeting with my surgeon was on Friday, June 8th, which just so happened to also be my last day of school before summer vacation, making Fridays the perfect day to weigh-in.  So throughout the summer, I’ll be giving Friday progress updates called Successful Summer Weigh-Ins.

This week I was motivated in a way that I haven’t been in a really long time.  I guess hearing the surgeon tell me that he’d kick me out of the bariatric program if I didn’t complete the goal in a timely manner will do that to me.  What I’ve come to realize is that following the plan and making this into a lifestyle is really easy when this is the main focus of my days.  That’s what I love about summer – I can concentrate on me.

I’m glad I had this time off for this first week back because I instilled quite a few changes:

  • I started taking all my vitamins again – I’d gotten really lazy about this, but I need to develop this as part of my life because I’ll be much healthier after surgery if I do.
  • I’ve been weighing and measuring every single thing that goes in my mouth, no exceptions.  My main problem is portion sizes, so it’s important to get back to basics with those.
  • I’ve changed my daily routine so that the first real thing I do when I wake up (after all the bathroom business) is make my bed, get dressed, and take Sofi for a walk while the coffee is brewing.  It’s a great way to begin the day.  I also tackle one housekeeping thing each day so that I don’t have to do a marathon cleaning session on the weekends.
  • A huge change has been in the way that I’ve been shopping for food.  When school is in and time is tighter, I shop for the entire week on Sunday.  Now that I have plenty of time and no schedule to follow, I’ve been shopping for just a few days at a time.  This works well because I don’t have too much food in the house at any one time and the fruits/veggies are fresher.
  • I work my day around my workouts, rather than the other way around.  Swimming, bike riding, and walking have really become activities that I look forward to – hobbies that I enjoy as much as reading or blogging – so I make sure that anything else I need to do fits into my workout plans.
  • I’m getting more sleep.  This is huge for me.  I still get to stay up late, which I love, but since I don’t have to wake up at 5:30am, I can get enough rest.  I wake up feeling so ready to tackle the day.

{Okay, Bella, that’s all good and well, but what we really want to know is how you did on the scale}.  Right?!

Today I weighed in at 306.6, which means I lost 8.4 pounds this week, meaning I have 26 lbs to go to reach my pre-surgery goal.  What an awesome start!!  26 lbs seems like nothing.  And granted, I am still over 300 lbs, which is frightening and embarrassing, but dropping 8.4 in one week is amazing to me.

What’s even more amazing is how easy it was to do it.  I just didn’t allow myself to consider that snacks were an option, because they weren’t.  I told myself that I was going to eat as close to 400 calories per meal as I could, and stick as closely as I could to 1200 per day.  I also made sure that I exercised for over an hour each day, except Wednesday, which I took as a rest day. The power of the mind is incredible.  This goes to show that if I stick to the guidelines Kaiser’s laid out for me, I will be successful.

I’ve been here many times before – jazzed because I had a great weigh in, and then something in my mind goes haywire and I get cocky and I let things slip.  Not this time.  I know that my problem is consistency, so that’s going to be my focus throughout this summer while I reach for my goal (and beyond that, obviously).  I have it in me to have great weeks every week, and now I’m all about showing it, rather than just writing it.

Until next week.  I hope the scale treats you well this week, too.

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My birthday is July 2nd, and what better gift could I give to myself that to reach this goal that’s nearing two years in the making? So from now until then, I’ll be giving Sunday updates/weekend wrap-ups on my progress called Birthday Gift Goal Updates.

In what seems to be a recurring theme with this post, I don’t have a weigh in to share this week. I checked in on the scale throughout the week, and it was still holding steady.

But this week really wasn’t about that. I have lots of NSVs this week, all in the form of workouts. I worked out “every damn day,” only taking one day off. I felt good about myself with each sweatyface photo I posted on FB.

The highlight of the week was something I’d been looking forward to for a few weeks – BeautyJunkie824‘s Goal Weight Celebration. I thought her idea of hosting a hike in Muir Woods to celebrate getting to her goal weight was ingenious. But if I’m honest, I have to admit that I was completely nervous and anxious about whether or not I’d be able to keep up. From everything I’d read online, the paths in Muir Woods were challenging and steep. I hated the thought of making people wait for me. Or that I wouldn’t be able to keep up. But I pushed through my nerves and rsvp’d “yes” because I love BeautyJunkie824, I’m so proud of her for reaching her goal, I’d never been to Muir Woods, and I wanted to challenge myself.

20120521-084921.jpg So I left the house at 7:45am yesterday and headed up through San Francisco, across the Golden Gate Bridge, and into Mill Valley, where Muir Woods is located. Even though I’ve seen the GG Bridge in person more times than I can count, I always get goosebumps when I see it.  There was absolutely no traffic on my way up through SF, and I got to Muir Woods in 1.5 hours.  The ride up to Muir Woods was really, really curvy, so I’m really glad that I decided to drive myself.  I can get carsick, and that windy road would have been enough to do it.  I arrived early, so I took a few minutes to take in the scenery and snap some photos.

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This creek runs throughout different areas of Muir Woods, and this view was on the way from the overflow parking lot to the Visitor’s Center. It really made me excited for all that I was about to see.

Soon enough BeautyJunkie824 and her friends arrived and we were on our way on the hike.  The beginning was nice and slow as we stayed on the “boardwalk” path and took in all of the sites in the Cathedral Grove. This is the pathway that most of the tourists and families take – it’s fairly flat, wide, and easy to navigate.  There are several smaller “loops” that feed off of the boardwalk, and we were heading to the Ben Johnson Trail.

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The redwoods are just so majestic. Awe-inspiring.

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We walked this way for some time, and then we hit the area that I had been dreading – the part where it began an incline.  The guidebook said the incline was gradual, but for someone who is 150 lbs overweight, it was anything but. My heart starting really beating and my breath became really shallow.  But I pushed myself because I wanted to make it to the destination – Stinson Beach.

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This was the log that we had to cross to make our way up the trail. It was about a story off the ground, which didn’t bother me, because I’m not afraid of heights.

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You can’t tell it from the angle of this photo, but each of those are fairly steep steps that we had to walk up.

I kept climbing and climbing, even though my heart was pounding and I couldn’t get my breath.  The steps were really hard to climb because they were so steep.  BeautyJunkie824′s mom was so sweet and stayed behind with me because she said she needed to rest, too, but I knew it was because she didn’t want to leave me alone.  At one point I told her I didn’t think I could continue, but she told me that she knew that I could, and that I’d feel so good when we got to top and then had nothing but a downhill descent to look forward to. As much as I tried, I finally realized that I’d gone as far as I was going to.  I was gasping for air and my heart was beating so fast that I was feeling sick, and overwhelmed, and panicky.  And my foot was starting to go numb, which was really scary, considering that the ground wasn’t even, but really bumpy and unsure.

With tears in my eyes I told BeautyJunkie824′s mom that I didn’t think I could make it. She said that she had worried that I might not be able to, and that she was so sorry for pushing me.  I told her that I appreciated her push, because sometimes I needed it, but at this point I had to listen to my body, and that this was where I had to turn back.  She called BeautyJunkie824 over, and that’s when I really started to cry.  I stammered out that I was so sorry for holding them all back, that I was so disappointed in myself, and that I didn’t want to ruin what was supposed to be a celebration.  She was great and hugged me and comforted me and told me that she was so proud of what I HAD accomplished, and I should be to.  I heard what she was saying, but still felt a terrible sense of discouragement.  I’d wanted so badly to go with them and see everything, but once again my body wasn’t going to allow me. It’s hard to describe just how gut-wrenching this was to me; I felt like a complete failure.

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#pinklaces. I took this to show how steep the steps were, but again, I don’t think this gives shows it. Even on the way back, going downhill, I had to be really careful to avoid falling.

Yet, as I walked back to my car by myself (they had offered to see me back to the Cathedral Grove, but I just wanted to be alone), I took some time to realize how much I really had done.  I’d hiked my way through a really steep section of Muir Woods, and even though I hadn’t gone as far as I’d hoped, it was something that I could build on.  It was now a baseline that I could push past, that I could overcome.

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I walked/hiked for over two hours, burned 1260 calories, and had seen sites that I’d never experienced before.  I tried something far outside my comfort zone, even though I had major doubts and reservations.  I pushed myself and I tried, and that counts for something.  Plus, I found this hidden gem right in my own backyard that I plan to visit again and again this summer. And after I’ve lost some significant weight, let’s say 50 lbs or so, I plan to try this same path again to see how much farther I can go.  And I’ll keep trying, until I can make it all the way to Stinson Beach.

So this week was successful for me, no matter what the scale shows or how much of a path that I left untraveled. Because I am showing myself, through actions and not just words, that I am serious in my pursuit of my first major goal.  It’s only a matter of WHEN, not IF.

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I came to the woods because I wished to live deliberately and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.” ~~ Henry DavidThoreau, from Walden

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My birthday is July 2nd, and what better gift could I give to myself that to reach this goal that’s nearing two years in the making? So from now until then, I’ll be giving Sunday updates/weekend wrap-ups on my progress called Birthday Gift Goal Updates.

Once again I forgot to weigh myself this morning.  It seems that I’m either so groggy or so excited about the day’s plans on Sunday mornings that I can’t seem to remember to get on the scale.  So I just put a little reminder in my iCal, which should take care of my poor memory.

It’s just as well that I didn’t weigh in today – it’s TOM, and although the clothes are fitting the same as they did a couple of days ago, I’m sure there’s a slight water weight gain.

This week I was supposed to concentrate on working out, and while I did better than I did the week before, which is progress, I didn’t do enough.  Which leads me to a bit of an epiphany I had last week.

Thursday I was at my desk at school, eating my lunch and reading blogs (as I do most days), and I  came across this post, written by Tonya.  And as I read it, I realized that she could have been writing directly to me.  It’s strange that a post with such biblical tones in it spoke to me this much, but it did, especially the beginning portion, where she writes:

I don’t want to just scratch the surface anymore. I’m tired of not finishing. Half-way leaves you hung in the balance; it doesn’t take you down or move you forward. You’re just…STUCK.”

That’s what I’ve been doing for weeks months years now.  Concentrating on only part of the journey.  Doing well with food during the day and then overeating at night.   Or doing great with the food, but being lazy about workouts.  And really, I’m just so tired of being Miss Halfway.

I’m going to do my best today to dig deeper and give 100% of myself to my workout and to my food plan.  And tomorrow, I’ll do the same thing.  And while I take each day as it comes, I will continue to recommit to myself, because I do believe I’m made to shine.

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My birthday is July 2nd, and what better gift could I give to myself that to reach this goal that’s nearing two years in the making? So from now until then, I’ll be giving Sunday updates/weekend wrap-ups on my progress called Birthday Gift Goal Updates.

This morning I woke up and was so excited about the weather forecast and some plans that I had, that I completely forgot to weigh myself on the scale.  I’m disappointed that I forgot, but at the same time, I have a feeling that the scale probably didn’t change too much in either direction.  Again.

I’ve been doing well with my food, but not great on the exercise front.  When I look at some of the people that have been my inspirations in this weight loss journey, for example Scale Warfare and BeautyJunkie824, the biggest difference between their routines and mine is the fact that they’ve been putting in WORK exercising.

I keep saying that I need to workout more regularly, but so far, I haven’t got back in the zone that I can get in during the summer.  But summer only lasts 2 months, and if this is going to be a lifelong journey,  I need to learn how to make working out a priority even when my schedule gets busy.  Because lots of people with much busier schedules than mine find the time, and I can, too, if I really want it.

Along those lines, today I went on a long walk with one of my friends, and it felt good to get out and get moving. The weather was beautiful, and we were able to get to the trail before it got too hot.  We were going at a really great pace, fast enough to really get my heart rate up and for me to sweat a bit.  The problem was that I also had that numbness in my feet that I was experiencing a few years ago (and every now and then since).  I’m not sure what brings it on, but the only difference between today and all the other days that I walk is the speed we were going.  It’s super frustrating not to be able to walk as fast as I know I can because my body (specifically, my feet) aren’t cooperating. I’m not going to let the frustration get to me, though.  I’m going to do what I can right now and know that as I lose weight, this will improve.

Not much else to report this weekend.  I had to proctor the SAT early on Saturday morning for 5 hours, after which I did the grocery shopping for the week.  And the rest of the day I did my own marathon of watching Game of Thrones.  It’s not the type of series that I would normally be interested in, but I’ve been hearing such great things from everyone about it, I thought I’d give it a try.  And before I knew it, I was sucked right in.  Today, besides the long walk, I prepped my food for the week  and spent some time reading outside.  A nice, quiet, relaxing weekend.

So this week’s workout plan is:
Monday: walk Sofi; aqua aerobics
Tuesday: Zumba DVD; walk Sofi
Wednesday: walk Sofi; aqua aerobics
Thursday: elliptical at the gym; walk Sofi
Friday: walk Sofi; OnDemand workout
Saturday: Zumba class; long walk with Sofi
Sunday: long walk with Sofi

Here’s to a week of getting it done.  A week of no excuses.  A week of endorphins brought on from a hard workout.  And a week of feeling proud for sticking to what I said I was going to do.

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My birthday is July 2nd, and what better gift could I give to myself that to reach this goal that’s nearing two years in the making? So from now until then, I’ll be giving Sunday updates/weekend wrap-ups on my progress called Birthday Gift Goal Updates.

Week 4 was a struggle for me, I’m not going to lie. I had a ton of responsibilities this past week for work, which really took my time away from exercising. I know that I probably could have found the time, but all I felt was (self-imposed) pressure, and when I feel like that, I can’t see past just getting the job at hand done. Not to mention a complication with my car which sent me to the dealership, but what’s a few more hours wasted, right? Poor Sofi was lucky that we went on any walks at all. :(

My food was pretty decent all week – I stayed within my 1400 calorie range all week, but I wasn’t really inspired by what I was eating. Lots of leftovers, fewer fresh veggies. It was the week before I get paid (I only get paid once a month), which is usually the week that I open the freezer and pantry and have whatever I can find that looks healthy. I don’t have any junk food in the house, but this week wasn’t my best ever, to say the least.

Which all adds up to the fact that I only lost 1 lb this week. My total loss is 6 lbs overall from my starting point, which means:

And I know that a loss is a loss, and I didn’t do anything to warrant a higher number, but it’s still disappointing that I let an opportunity to lose more weight slip by. I did a good job of maintaining, which is an improvement from my recent pattern of overeating due to stress. So progress is happening. Part of the stress I felt this week could have been avoided if I had done the grading in small increments each day. But I let myself have too many off days, and then got stuck in a situation where I HAD to get the papers back to the students by the date I’d promised they’d have them.

The good news was that with all that work I did over the week, I had the weekend to myself.  So yesterday I spent most of the day cleaning the house top to bottom.  Everything from mopping every floor of the house to changing the sheets on the bed, dusting the entire house, and cleaning both bathrooms.  Plus laundry.  I was tired when I was through, but that great kind of tired that comes from a  job well done.  Plus, I had a sparkling clean house to wake up to this morning.

Today I did more laundry (I swear, for one person I sure do have a lot of loads!) and then got ready to meet a friend for a nice walk and chat along a great trail near my house.  I even brought Sofi along.

It was a beautiful day here today, but it was hotter out than I had anticipated, and after we’d been walking for about 45 minutes, poor Sofi just plopped down in any shady spot she could find, was breathing so hard, and looked so uncomfortable.  I decided to walk her down to the pond area so she could wet her feet, and well, here’s what happened next!

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Forget my feet, I'm going to plunk my whole body down in this nice cold, algae-filled pond.

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Awww, relief. Hey, maybe I can go a little deeper....

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One of my friends who saw this on on FB said that Sofi looks like a merdog in this one. It was definitely the money shot.

Good thing it was bath night tonight!  I made sure to give her a fairly cool bath when we got home, and she didn’t seem to mind the bath as much.  Poor little thing.  But she (and I) had fun out there with my friend.  We’ll just have to make sure to go a bit earlier in the day next time.

And I’ve spent the rest of the evening cooking a great dinner, preparing my lunches, and basically getting ready for tomorrow.

 

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