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reverb13-blog-button Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb13: Reverb is a way to reflect on the past year and project into the next year with a prompt a day for 31 days.  December is the perfect time to reflect on 2013 and start to create intentions for 2014.

Day 18: Stylin’
Wear it out | What piece of clothing did you wear again and again all through out the year?  Why?  Is it all worn out?  Are you going to replace it or keep wearing it?

The funny thing about this prompt is that now that I’ve been losing weight so steadily and so quickly, none of my clothes last long enough to really wear out.  I have recently purchased sweaters, hoodies, sweats, and jeans to have something that fits, but many of those are getting a bit loose.  For Christmas I’m looking forward to getting some gift cards so that I can replenish my wardrobe a bit more.

But to answer the prompt more directly, I’d say I wear my workout clothes again and again, especially these new pants that I’ve been wearing to run:

maxcontrol They’re Max Compression crops from Old Navy. I love them because even though they’re very form fitting, they’re also very flattering.  And, better still, they hold me in as I’m running.  Now that I’ve lost over 112 pounds, there’s a lot of jiggling going on in my thighs, and these pants make me feel a lot more comfortable.  I definitely wear them all the time, and am actually looking forward to buying another pair soon.

I’m really looking forward to hitting my goal weight so that I can start to buy a true wardrobe that will last for years to come!

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reverb13-blog-button Throughout the month of December, I’ll be participating in #reverb13: Reverb is a way to reflect on the past year and project into the next year with a prompt a day for 31 days.  December is the perfect time to reflect on 2013 and start to create intentions for 2014.

Day 17: Creatures of Habit
30 days | They say it takes 30 days to make or break a habit.  What did you start?  What did you quit?

Recently I started C25K, and walking/running is becoming a habit that I really like.  I love feeling the progress that each new session brings.  After trying C25K two other times, it’ really gratifying that this time I’m seeing success.  I also love that I’m not feeling any sort of pain in my feet, ankles, or knees.

Today (I’m catching up on my #reverb13 posts, so I’m actually writing this on 12/23) I started Week 4, Day 1:

5:00 warm up walk (3.5 mph)
3:00 run (4.3 mph)
1:30 walk (3.5 mph)
5:00 run (4.3 mph)
2:30 walk (3.5 mph)
3:00 run (4.3 mph)
1:30 walk (3.5 mph)
5:00 run (4.3 mph)
5:00 cool down walk (3.0 mph)

This totals running half the 5K – 1.5 miles! 16 minutes of running!!

I have to admit that I was slightly worried before I began, but with the other success that I’ve had thus far with C25K, I believed in myself that I could do it.  And sure enough, I did!  It took a bit of mental prompting at the 4-minute mark, but I made it through.  No, actually, I rocked it!!  So much so that I decided to treat myself with a new workout tee from Blogilates (who has the best inspiration workout gear):

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I love the saying: “Run with your heart when your legs get tired.”

So after 4 weeks of this C25K program, I’m halfway to being able to run a 5K (or most of one).  I’d say that’s a great new habit I’ve started.

As far as a bad habit I’ve given up, I guess I’d say I’ve given up making excuses.  I hold myself accountable for every action, and make better choices that yield better results.  It’s freeing to DO instead of SAY.  No more excuses!

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bilbl_superThis morning I woke up with a mission.  Even though it was freezing cold outside, I was going to head to the track at my neighborhood high school and start C25K.  (I was supposed to start on Monday, but Sofi was feeling ill and after our visit to the vet, I didn’t want to leave her home alone. I’ve had appointments and other obligations the rest of this week, so today was the first time I’ve been able to get to the track in the morning).

As you guys know, I’ve tried C25K once or twice before. Both of my previous attempts weren’t successful.  I really wanted to do the program, but I just weighed too much to physically do it.  In fact, both times before, I wasn’t even able to complete all of the running segments on the first day.  I figured that it was ok to skip a few of them, as long as I was out there and moving, and I guess at the time it was alright, because my fitness level just wasn’t up to it.  The heart wanted it, but the body couldn’t follow.

So getting up this morning, I have to say that I was determined that this third time was going to be different.  I wasn’t going to allow myself anything but success.  But I was still scared that I wouldn’t be able to do it, even though I really wanted to.

Always go with the choice that scares you the most, because that’s the one that is going to require the most from you.” – Caroline Myss  (One of my MFP peeps posted this quote today, and it couldn’t be more apropos).

It was 46 degrees as I got out of the car and walked toward the track. (That temp downright frosty for this Bay Area girl!) But I knew that I’d warm up quickly once I started jogging.  So I turned on Endomondo, opened my Madonna Madness Rock my Run playlist, and opened my C25K app from Zen Labs.

I started on the 5-minute warm up, really enjoying the Madonna beats the DJ had put in the mix, and taking in the gorgeous, sunny weather.  There were only 3 other people out on the track with me, and since I had my shaper on underneath my workout pants, I felt confident that there wasn’t “too much jiggle in my wiggle.” Even though I was anxious about starting the running portion of the C25K, I decided not to psych myself out and just enjoy the warm up.

As I was rounding the track for the third time, I thought to myself, “wow, I’ve gone 3/4 of a mile in 5 minutes!” And then I thought, “wait a minute…that’s not possible, I’m only going at about 3.5 mph, what’s going on?!” And that’s when I realized that the dumb C25K app I was using wasn’t prompting me to switch to running.  Apparently, I had to keep it open and active for it to give me any cues.  I thought it would work in the background, but apparently you get what you pay for.  (This app from Zen Labs was free and not worth the time it took to download it).  In reality, I’d gone 13:56 minutes.  Ugh.  But I wasn’t going to let this less than stellar start deter me from doing the C25K – I’d make it work.

So, I started the app over again, did another 5 minutes of warm up, and then hit the intervals.  60 seconds of running, followed by 90 seconds of walking, for 20 minutes.  It sucked to have to keep the app up and active the whole time, but I wasn’t going to let that stand in my way of completing this goal.

{If anyone can recommend a C25K app, please leave it in the comments. I’m willing to spend some money on an app that can run in the background}.

As I started running, I felt light, smooth, and easy.  Ok, easy probably isn’t the right word, but I did feel strong.  I wasn’t huffing and puffing as I had in the past.  I’d learned from my last attempt at C25K that I needed to pace myself and not run at a sprint, otherwise I’d wear myself out.  So I jogged in my “tip-toeing-through-the-tulips” style that my sister says I have.  Carina said that this might mean that I’m light on my feet, and since she’s a running expert, let’s go with that.  🙂

In the past, I’ve been so out of breath during the running portions of the program that I had to skip a few of those segments, but not today.  Today I completed each 60-second run, and sure, those last 10 seconds or so were me willing myself to finish it, but I didn’t give up and start walking early.  I stayed with my jog and pushed through it.

83db7483820eceb252910509dfbb17d9I’m so glad that this morning, for the first time ever, I listened to the part of my brain that has helped me lose 106 pounds.  Today I tapped into every single ounce of perseverance that I possess, and I kept going.  And you know what, it was actually great.

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As I finished the 20-minute run/walk intervals and began the 5-minute cool down, I had the hugest smile on my face.  I’d accomplished something that had been a goal of mine for so long.  And I did it well.  Sure, today’s just Day 1, Week 1, but I am confident that I will be able to complete this program this time, and that’s more exciting than I can express.

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Reward Time!! TGI(Black)F

Because I’m someone who responds well to rewards, and since today is Black Friday, I decided to take advantage of the deals Old Navy was advertising and buy myself a few casual/workout/”after school” clothes.  I’d just completed Day 1, Week 1 of C25K and it was time to shop!! I got all of these items for $65, including tax, which I’d say is a GREAT deal. I know that within two months these will be too big for me, but at prices like, this, I’m fine with it.  Part of enjoying each step of my journey is feeling and looking my best as I do it.  Having clothes that fit is a huge part of that. So I don’t mind buying a few pieces that won’t fit me forever – I deserve it.

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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler, which means that those wonderful fall fashions will keep me motivated. Plus, crisp temperatures mean that it’s never “too hot” to workout. I’m going to relish my nightly cup of steaming hot tea as another way to keep my water intake up. I look forward to all those hearty, satisfying and wls-friendly soups, stews, and crockpot meals that I’ll create for myself. This year, the changing season will mark new milestones that I haven’t seen in 5, 7, 10+ years! Bring on fall 2013 – it’s time to reach new heights! Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Sunday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

Week 22 brought with it the change of seasons.  Finally, we’re experiencing cold mornings and evenings, although our days are gorgeous and sunny.  I love the layered clothing of fall, and it’s been fun putting cooler-weather outfits together.  My closet is down to the bare minimum, so I’ve spent a bit on some new sweaters – more on that in a bit. My food has been great, and I’ve been enjoying lots of fall flavors – butternut squash casserole, rotisserie chicken and pumpkin soup, and today I’m going to make pumpkin pie crockpot oatmeal.  Of course I put my own spin on each of these recipes, especially the oatmeal. I need more protein than the original recipe has, so I add in scoops of vanilla protein powder (I also omit the maple syrup in favor of flavored sugar free torani – saves calories and tastes just as good).

So, how’s the scale looking?

When I weighed in this morning, I was 217.6, which is a loss of 1.4 pounds this week, and a loss of 59.4 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 97.4 pounds from my highest weight!!  The weight loss is slowing down a bit these past couple of weeks, but I’m proud that I can honestly say that I have never had a stall in these 22 weeks.  Considering how awful my weight loss was pre-op, this is a fantastic fact! Actually, forget the caveat, this is a fantastic fact no matter what!  I see so many others on MyFitnessPal struggle with stalls from week to week, but I’ve never experienced one.  I can’t speak to what happens with other people’s bodies, but I can say for mine that having the surgery absolutely reset my metabolism, which had been shot after so many years of yo-yo dieting. Plus the fact that I have followed (most of) the rules Kaiser laid out and cook most of my meals myself.  I have gone out, of course, but it’s a rare, celebratory thing.  I have completely embraced this new lifestyle, and it’s paying off.

I can’t believe how close I am to losing 100 lbs!  I just can’t wait for that magic number to show up on the scale – I really hope I can get to it this week, but if not, I know that within 2 weeks, I’ll be there.  Can you believe it?  I really can’t.  I know I’ve been working hard, and have done everything I should, but it feels very surreal to me that I’ve lost this much weight.  Thank God I had the surgery!

One of the fun things that I did this week was spend the Anthropologie gift card that Amber gave me a couple of months ago.  Her gift was absolutely incredible because it came as a total surprise, and she said she sent it because I was so inspiring to her.  I mean, c’mon!  So generous and so sweet.  I’ve held onto the gift card because I’ve had it in my mind that I’d spend it when I got to goal.  But then I started thinking about the fact that I’m just now moving into tops that I can find in “normal” stores, so why not treat myself?  Plus the fact that my closet is in desperate need of some new fashions.  I went onto Anthropologie.com and hit the “sale” tab.  We all know that their regularly-priced clothing is so expensive, so I figured I’d see what was on sale.  Wow, there are some amazing deals on really cute stuff, and surprisingly, much of it was for this season.  There were quite a few things I liked, but I also wanted to keep to the $50 gift card and not have to spend too much extra.  So, this is what I settled on:

black anthro It was originally $128, marked down to $39.99.  With tax and shipping, it came out to $49.80 – pretty good shopping if I do say so myself! I got black because I figured it would take me through fall, winter, and into spring.  Plus, I love it.  And it will go nicely with jeans, skirts, and pants.  I know you can’t see much detail from the photo, so here it is in cream, which shows it off much better:

cream anthro I love the shoulder detail – those little loops are fun and funky and just different enough to be unique.  Plus, I think having something at the shoulder will probably help define my hourglass shape.  Or, it will make me look like a linebacker…I guess we’ll see.  I ordered it in a Large, which is crazy!  Many of the comments online were saying that it ran large, so I figured that I would get the most use out of it in that size.  I can’t wait!

Amber, thank you again so much for your generosity.  This is my first clothing purchase ever from Anthropolgie, and it’s all because of you!!  I’ll definitely think of you and your support and friendship every time I wear it.

Today’s quote is a great reminder of all of the things that I CAN do.

  • I can walk a 5K (or 5 miles, as I did with the SJ RocknRoll) without any pain. More than that, I have fun doing it.
  • I can go into any clothing store and buy tops that fit.  This is a huge milestone! (I can’t wait for the day I can say the same thing of pants).
  • I can lose weight even though my life is hectic and there never seems to be enough time in the day to accomplish everything I need to do.
  • I can make time for workouts because I love the way they make me feel and I know they help me create a stronger body, inside and out.
  • I can inspire other people toward their own weight loss goals, and I lead by example.
  • I can achieve every goal I have set for myself, which I’m doing, one by one.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler, which means that those wonderful fall fashions will keep me motivated. Plus, crisp temperatures mean that it’s never “too hot” to workout. I’m going to relish my nightly cup of steaming hot tea as another way to keep my water intake up. I look forward to all those hearty, satisfying and wls-friendly soups, stews, and crockpot meals that I’ll create for myself. This year, the changing season will mark new milestones that I haven’t seen in 5, 7, 10+ years! Bring on fall 2013 – it’s time to reach new heights! Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Sunday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

Week 21 was another great one.  Life continues to be busy, as evidenced by the fact that I’m writing my weigh-in post on Tuesday, when I normally write it on Sunday.  Craziness!

So, how’s the scale looking?

When I weighed in Sunday morning, I was 219.0, which is a loss of 1 pound and a loss of 58 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 96 pounds from my highest weight!!  Even though this is a small loss, it’s significant because it marks a new weight “decade” that I find myself in.  The TEENS!!  I haven’t weighed this little in…well, I really can’t remember.  My 100 lbs lost is just around the corner, and right after that milestone is Onederland.  Whoohoo!  So much to look forward to.  🙂

One issue that’s come up lately for me is a lack of fiber in my diet.  Ahem.  So, I’ve been adding Amazing Grass to my morning protein shake, as well as taking Miralax nightly.  It’s definitely better than the alternative, which I experienced to an alarming degree on Sunday.  Not fun.

What has been really fun is shopping for new clothes.  I know I mentioned a bit of shopping last week, but as my closet continues to dwindle down to almost-nothing, I’ve been replenishing it.  It’s so cool that I can now buy tops in the normal sizes at stores.  This week I spent a bit of money at Dress Barn, which is a place that I love finding unique sweaters.  Although I hate the name, I really do like the store because it carries both plus and regular sizes.  Another place I’m about to hit is Macy’s.  If I can walk into their Misses department and buy an XL off the rack, I know I’ll be pinching myself in the dressing room.  All these small changes add up to being something that is really amazing.

Today’s quote is one that I really take to heart.  Over the last several years I’ve spent most of my efforts chasing this goal, sometimes spinning my wheels in the process.  So now that I’ve completely transformed my lifestyle (and my body) so that I can build the life I’ve always wanted, it feels fantastic to see my goal in action.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler, which means that those wonderful fall fashions will keep me motivated. Plus, crisp temperatures mean that it’s never “too hot” to workout. I’m going to relish my nightly cup of steaming hot tea as another way to keep my water intake up. I look forward to all those hearty, satisfying and wls-friendly soups, stews, and crockpot meals that I’ll create for myself. This year, the changing season will mark new milestones that I haven’t seen in 5, 7, 10+ years! Bring on fall 2013 – it’s time to reach new heights! Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Sunday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

Week 20 brought with it a bit of a break from the craziness of the week before.  I decided to take Monday off to catch up on errands and housework, and I even got a new ‘do. This week I also had some shopping NSVs.

So, how’s the scale looking?

I weighed in this morning at 220.0, which is a loss of 2 pounds and a loss of 57 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 95 pounds from my highest weight!!  I’m really pleased with this week’s weight loss, because I’d taken the week off from working out.  My body seemed to need it, especially after all I did last week, and besides that, I had my period, so it seemed like a good week to take a breather. I made really healthy meals for myself, and paid attention to my water and vitamin intake.  I’m also glad to see a loss with a “2” in front of it this week, because I’ve been losing around a pound for the past couple of weeks.  Since I have 5 pounds to go to be down 100 pounds, I’m going to push to make that milestone before the end of October.

butternut squash casserole One of the meals that I made this week was Eggface’s Butternut Squash Casserole.  I changed it a bit by adding sage in with the sauteed ground turkey, and it was a delicious touch.  I highly recommend this dish because it’s hearty and filling, yet so good for you.  I had it several times this past week for lunch and dinner.  Plus, I have half of it left in the freezer.

Monday I got a haircut, and I feel like a brand new person!  I’ve mentioned before how much hair I’ve been losing, which is normal after surgery, because of the hormonal changes caused by the rapid weight loss.  It lasts from month 3 – 6, and I just couldn’t take it anymore.  Not only was my hair getting thinner, but it was also completely changing texture.  My hair has always been dry, but now it’s super-dry and much frizzier.  I hated the way it felt.  So I decided that it was time for a major cut.

These were some of the inspiration photos that I brought into my stylist:

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And this is the great cut I walked out of the salon with…

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I love it! It’s sassy and short, and because so many inches were cut off (at least 4 or 5, I think), the hair is so much healthier.  Plus, because it’s shorter, when the hair does come out in the shower, it seems like less because it’s not as long. I got a ton of compliments at school, on FB, and in person. It was time to make a change.  In the past when I’ve had shorter hair, I was always really self-conscious because my face was so full and my body was so big, and I felt so exposed.  I don’t feel that way at all now.  My face has changed so much since the last time I had a short cut, and I don’t feel like I need to hide behind long hair to somehow balance out my body.  It’s very freeing.

The other major NSV this week came at Old Navy.  I’d gotten a coupon for 30% off, and since I’m in desperate need of some new clothes, especially tops, I figured it was a long overdue excursion.  The thing is, I’ve never been able to shop inside an Old Navy store for myself before.  Their plus sizes are online only, so this would be my first attempt to fit into normal sizes in the store. I really wanted get some sweaters, but I didn’t like the choices I saw.  So I ended up with a 49ers long-sleeved thermal and a fleece hoodie.  Both are in XXL, which I guess could be considered plus-sizes, but I’m just so happy that I didn’t have to be relegated to a plus-size store to get them.  The XL fit, too, but was a bit too tight for me to wear out, so I went with the larger size. As you can tell with the 49ers shirt, it fits well and I don’t have to worry about washing & drying it.  (If it shrank a bit, it would still be fine).  As I was in the dressing room trying on clothes, I was struck by just how far I’d come.  There were times in the past when nothing at Torrid fit, and when I was almost out of sizes at Lane Bryant.  I’m wearing a 14/16 top (highest weight = 26/28 that was tight) and 18/20 pants (highest weight = 28 tight).  I can’t wait to be solidly in the normal sizes in pants, too.
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Another shopping NSV hit when I realized that I’d donated all of my warm pjs, and literally had nothing to wear now that the weather was turning chilly.  So I went to Kohls and found two sets of pjs in XXL (18/20) that would have NEVER fit me last year at this time.

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I know they’re really similar, but I love having red pjs for the cold-weather months.  The first have cute little Scotty dogs and the other is a classic plaid.  I got each of the sets for $18.99, which is unheard of in the plus-sized clothing world.  That’s just another little perk of being able to wear clothes from the normal stores – I can find such great deals, and the clothes are more reasonably priced.

This coming week I want to get back to my workouts, up my water intake to 10 glasses a day, and keep enjoying the fun fall menus I’ve been making.  Life is so good right now, and I hope my weekly weigh-in posts don’t sound boring, because I feel like I write that all the time.  But those of you who have been with me for a while know just how far I’ve come.  Today’s quote couldn’t be more apropos.  THIS is the place I always knew I could get to, and it feels fabulous to finally be here and be able to enjoy each and every moment.

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler, which means that those wonderful fall fashions will keep me motivated. Plus, crisp temperatures mean that it’s never “too hot” to workout. I’m going to relish my nightly cup of steaming hot tea as another way to keep my water intake up. I look forward to all those hearty, satisfying and wls-friendly soups, stews, and crockpot meals that I’ll create for myself. This year, the changing season will mark new milestones that I haven’t seen in 5, 7, 10+ years! Bring on fall 2013 – it’s time to reach new heights! Sunday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend, and will give me a positive goal to begin each new week. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Sunday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

Week 19 was busy and fun-filled! I had a blast dressing up for each day of homecoming week (see my Intagram), played in the powder puff football game, and participated in the SJ RocknRoll Mini Marathon.

So, how’s the scale looking?

I weighed in this morning at 222.0, which is a loss of 1.2 pounds and a loss of 55 lbs since surgery! I’ve lost a total of 93 pounds from my highest weight!! 

This week really showed me just how much more I am able to do with all of this weight gone!  Yes, I’m in smaller sizes, yes, I like the image I see when I look in the mirror, but this week I really FELT how much healthier I am now.  I’m doing things that I would have never even attempted a year ago.  It’s exciting to tap into this other side of myself that I didn’t realize I had.  I can’t wait to see all the new adventures in fitness I achieve in the coming months and years.

I also had a few non-fitness related NSVs this week, both of which make me smile when I think of them.

The first happened at race packet pickup on Friday.  The RocknRoll series is very strict about each individual picking up their own bib, and IDs are absolutely required.  I showed my ID, and the woman scrutinized it, looked up at me, went back to the ID, and looked back at me with a questionable look on her face.  Then she said, “well, all this walking is obviously working, because you look like a totally different person.”  How cool is that?  It’s so rare that I ever have to show my ID, and it had been months since I’d really looked at the photo, but there is a major difference, to be sure.  My license expires July 2014, and it will be neat to see how much more I change between now and then.

The next NSV happened Saturday morning before the SAT.  One of the other teachers, who is typically really cynical and snarky, told me, “you look fantastic! When I look at you, sitting across from me at the table like this, I see a thin person.  You inspire me to get back to a healthier life.”  I was blown away by her compliments!  The fact that I might inspire her to get a bit healthier really pleases me.

This coming week, I’m looking forward to the pace of life slowing down just a bit.  It means that I can get back to cooking some healthy dinners, workout on my hybrid, take care of the house and Sofi, and take a breath.

This quote really proved true for me this week, as I did a lot that took me out of my comfort zone, and it was all AWESOME!

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Until next Sunday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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