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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler and there are no holidays or other social commitments to derail me from strictly adhering to my food and workout plan. I’m determined that fall 2012 will be when I achieve my pre-surgery weight loss goal. Since weekday mornings are hectic, I’m moving my weigh-in day to Saturday. Saturday mornings I go to Zumba, so I’m already focused on health and fitness; it’s the perfect day to weigh in. Plus, Saturday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Saturday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

Week 2 on Jenny was busy! I was swamped at work – Dean for the Day on Monday, at work 12 hours Tuesday and Thursday, and hectic Wednesday and Friday. It’s a week like this past one that would have sent me reeling, but luckily having the Jenny Craig food came in really handy. I loved not having to think about what I was going to make and eat. The organization is built in, which is huge for me; it helped me feel in control and allowed me to make good choices. I absolutely feel that I’ve turned a corner in this battle of the bulge, and I’m finally feeling like I have the upper hand. I stayed 100% on program through a wild week, and I’m extremely proud of myself for that.

That’s great, Bella, but what were the results on the scale?!!

This morning I weighed in at 303.2, which is a loss of 1 lb this week. Which means I have 22 pounds to go to reach the pre-surgery requirement. Each day this past week I was watching the scale, seeing the same weight each day (down to the ounce), which was slightly frustrating because I was following the meal plan perfectly. Then on Thursday I had a tiny breakthrough, which was thrilling. I’ve lost small increments each day since then. I didn’t expect a huge loss this week, especially considering I lost 9.6 lbs last week and I didn’t get many workouts in. I’m really proud of my two-week total of 10.6 pounds lost. That’s a great number!

{I’m really glad that I’m weighing in at home and going by that number. Last week my JC consultant obviously didn’t record my weight correctly, because she said that I’d lost 3.6 lbs this week, yet their scale had me at around the same number I saw on my own scale this morning. (I always weigh 1-2 lbs more at JC because I’m wearing clothes). Overall the weight loss is more or less the same over these past two weeks, but I like a bit more accuracy in each week’s numbers}.

Last week I gave myself the goal of drinking 100 oz of water each day. With my hectic schedule, it just wasn’t possible. I did it both days of the weekend, but then just consumed 64 oz the rest of the day. I’m glad I got the 8 glasses in each day, which was no small feat in a week this nuts. The other problem area this week was the fact that I didn’t really workout. Monday I walked for hours as Dean, so that counted as my workout, but it wasn’t until today that I got another workout in. I need to change that this week, beginning today.

I also have a TON of grading to get done by 8am on Monday, so that’s going to be the main focus for my weekend. It’s supposed to be really hot tomorrow and Monday, so my plan is to take a break from the essays and go for a nice swim. Plus, grading poolside makes it much more palatable.

As for the rest of this week, I should have no obstacles in my path to working out at least 45 minutes each day. I foresee elliptical 5Ks, Zumba DVD/classes, OnDemand kickboxing, and maybe another swim or two in the workout mix this week. Hold me to it!

Until next Saturday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Autumn has arrived! Which means that life is back to normal – school’s in, my schedule is busy, and obligations abound. But I won’t use those as excuses to slack on my goals. The great thing about fall is that the weather is cooler and there are no holidays or other social commitments to derail me from strictly adhering to my food and workout plan. I’m determined that fall 2012 will be when I achieve my pre-surgery weight loss goal. Since weekday mornings are hectic, I’m moving my weigh-in day to Saturday. Saturday mornings I go to Zumba, so I’m already focused on health and fitness; it’s the perfect day to weigh in. Plus, Saturday weigh-ins will keep me accountable through the weekend. Throughout the fall, I’ll be giving Saturday progress updates called Fabulous Fall Weigh-Ins.

If you guys have been following along this week, you know that it was my first week on Jenny Craig.  It’s my third time on the program, the last time being 9 years ago.  In that time, they’ve vastly improved the food, encouraged the idea of “volumizing” meals by adding in veggies, and kept all the convenience and organization that I loved.  They also have me eating 1750-1850 calories each day, which was a huge leap from what I had been doing on Kaiser’s pre-surgery plan.  At first I was concerned that the jump in calories would negatively affect my weight loss, but I should’ve known better.  Jenny Craig isn’t the top weight loss program in the country for nothing.

That’s great, Bella, but what were the results on the scale?!!

This morning I weighed in at 304.2, which is a loss of 9.6 lbs this week!  Which means I have 23 pounds to go to reach the pre-surgery requirement.  I am thrilled with this result!!  I feel wonderful, and as I mentioned in a reply to one of the comments I received yesterday, I really and truly know in my heart that I will get to the pre-surgery goal.

For the longest time, I’ve been hoping, wishing, and praying that I would make it, but in my heart of hearts I don’t think I truly believed it.  The doubt came from all the starts and stops.  The rollercoaster ride I’ve taken on the scale really destroyed my confidence in my ability to do this for myself.  Subconsciously I didn’t believe in myself, and maybe that’s where some of the self-sabotage came from – a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts.

Now that I’m seeing how easy this is on Jenny Craig, every single one of those doubts has been banished from my mind.  I don’t even question IF, I know it will be WHEN.  I haven’t felt this type of conviction in recent memory. Not when I did the medically supervised fasting; not when I did Medifast, twice; and not when I did any pre-surgery plan over the past two years. Part of this is the knowledge that if I don’t make the goal weight soon, the surgeon will kick me out of the Kaiser program for not being a good WLS candidate.  That weighs heavily on my mind now that time is also a factor.  But the bigger part is the fact that Jenny Craig works, plain and simple.

This week I’m going to focus on drinking 100 oz of water every day.  I know that water really helps me drop weight, and it keeps me feeling and looking better.  Hydration, people!  Anyone want to join me?

Until next Saturday, my friends. I hope the scale treats you well, and that you have a wonderful week!

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Saturday morning arrived and rather than feeling too tired to get up at 5:30 am, I was actually energized.  Kelly had emailed me the day before to make sure I was going to be at the Mentor-led training at the Baylands Park Trail in Mt. View/Palo Alto.

adbebrds1 The Baylands Park Trail is located along the southern part of the San Francisco Bay.  Given that it’s right on the water, it was fairly windy and cold, but it was also really lovely.  The weather on Saturday was overcast, but perfect for walking.

Kelly arrived and handed me a gift bag.  I was so touched, but I didn’t open it yet, since we were about to start the walk.  I thanked her so much, and she said it was just a little something that she picked up because she was thinking of me.

Kelly and I began walking, and right away, she started talking about how she had one mode when she walked or ran – slow.  This was really difficult for me to believe, especially considering the fact that she is incredibly fit.  She participates in marathons and triathlons, and her figure is to die for.  She said that when she started training with TNT, she also experienced the feeling of being the last one.  She said that she was always beating herself up for it, and it wasn’t until she finished the San Diego Rock n’ Roll Marathon that things finally “clicked” for her.  She said the feeling she got when she crossed that finish line was like nothing she had every experienced.  She wished she wouldn’t have been so hard on herself during the training, because at the moment she reached the finish line, all that mattered was that she had completed it, not how quickly she did it.  She said that she felt like she had missed out on so much of the journey of the training, because she was concentrating on the wrong things. Now she accepts that she’s going to be the slow one, and she tries not to let the “demons” of negative self-talk stand in the way of her accomplishing her goals.  And then she said that she saw so much of herself in me.

Everything she said really hit home with me.  I have been concentrating on the fact that I’m so slow rather than in all that I’ve accomplished.  Here we were, up at 7am on a Saturday morning, about to walk for 2 hours.  That in itself was an accomplishment.  I knew that she was right and that I would be sorry if I let my competitiveness get in the way of experiencing the journey of this TNT experience.

As we continued, my legs began to cramp in the calves, and Kelly said we should stop and stretch.  She said that she also has really inflexible muscles, and that she can’t even touch her toes.  She bent down to show me, and she couldn’t.  I was shocked!  I can touch my toes, and I probably way 150 pounds more than she does.  It just goes to show that everyone has their own physical limitations.

We continued along the path at a pace of about a 20-minute mile.  At mile 2 my right foot started going numb.  I can’t describe how uncomfortable and then painful this is.  It’s like when your feet “go to sleep,” with the tingling, etc., but as the numbness travels up my leg all the way to my hip, it gets really scary.  I untied my laces a bit to allow for the swelling, and that alleviated the numbness a bit, but not all the way.  The numbness moved to my left foot, and then I decided to undo my laces all the way.  But I didn’t stop.

We kept talking, and I realized how much Kelly and I have in common.  She was a history major, and want to become a high school teacher.  She asked if she could come and observe my classroom to complete the 30 hours required to enroll in the credential program, and I said of course.  I kept thinking about what a sacrifice she had made to come out and walk with me.  About how caring she was, and how she was such a special person for doing it.  She made me want to continue, through the pain, because I wanted to make sure that I didn’t let her down or make her feel like she had given up her morning for nothing.  It felt so great to finally be able to verbalize some of the things that I had been keeping inside, and I appreciated Kelly so much for allowing me to be vulnerable enough to share everything with her.

We kept walking the entire 2 hours, and completed over 6 miles.  At mile 4, the numbness went away, my leg muscles were warmed up, and I felt stronger than I did at the beginning.  I know I finished the walk faster than I began it.

At the end of the walk, I soon realized that completely undoing my laces might have helped with the numbness, but it was a dumb move in terms of blisters.  It was clear that I now had blisters on the bottom of each of my feet, right at the balls of the feet.  Still, the feeling of accomplishment I felt after just having walked 6 miles was incredible.  6 miles = a 10K!!!!! And I felt like Kelly had been part life coach, part new friend out on that trail with me.

Later when I got home, I opened the gift bag she gave me and found a hand-held water bottle/fuel pouch.  Kelly had mentioned that she liked using the hand-held models better, because running with the fuel belt around her waist was annoying to her.  I had no idea at the time that she had bought one for me.  How sweet was that?  Then I discovered something even more special in the bag – it was a card that touched me so much it made me cry.

The outside of  the card from Kelly

The outside of the card from Kelly

The inside of Kelly's card

The inside of Kelly's card

Reading that card made me so overwhelmed.  To know that someone who I barely knew took the time to find the perfect card was incredible.  It really helped me feel the boost I needed to continue on with this training. Plus it was a great reminder that I have to refocus my thoughts and try to stop thinking about how slow I am and concentrate instead on how much I have accomplished.

img_01532 The card now has a prominent place on my refrigerator.

I may be slow, but I’m also mighty!

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