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Did you think I’d fallen off the face of the earth?  I can’t believe how long it’s been since my last post, or all that has happened in between.  There is so much to update!

First and foremost – I got a new job!!  It was completely unexpected, but when the opportunity presented itself, I knew I had to take it.  Let me step back.  For years, since I was in my masters program in 2006-2008, I knew that eventually I would like to become a New Teacher Advisor, which is someone who mentors first and second year teachers and supports them as they begin their careers.  Our local program is run out of the Silicon Valley/Santa Cruz New Teacher Project, which works in conjunction with all of the local school districts in the area.

I was first involved in the program as an inductee during my 3rd year of teaching.  (As longtime readers may recall, I first began teaching for two years, wasn’t happy with my placement, and took an opportunity to work for an internet company during the dotcom boom.  But I missed teaching, so after the thrill of the internet had died down, I decided to get back to it.  Since I’d been out of the classroom for 5 years at that point, the school district where I was working at the time asked me to do the new teacher program, which I agreed to).  At that point, back in 2002, the New Teacher Program was just beginning.  It offered support, assessment, and training, but I still had to take separate classes, which I paid for out of pocket, to clear my credential.  Still, my experience with the program, and especially my mentor teacher, was so phenomenal, that I knew at some point I would like become a mentor teacher.  Plus, my experience at the internet company, where I was training and supervising a group of 20 people, set me up well for the position.

Skip to two weeks ago, when a job posting for the New Teacher Advisor went out from my district office.  It was August 8th, a week before our first teacher workday and less than two weeks before school was starting.  Could I really apply for this job at this point in the summer, leaving my principal in a really bad position to try and fill my spot?  Not that I think I’m irreplaceable, by any means, but my schedule was one that no one else would be crazy enough to want.  I taught four different classes – English 3 honors, yearbook, journalism, and AVID. No one in their right minds would want that schedule (although I loved the variety it brought), especially that late in the year.  I talked to my parents, a couple of colleagues, and did a lot of soul searching.  Ultimately I decided to go for it because these positions don’t come up very often.  The deciding factor was the other teacher I’d be working with if I got the position – she and I had worked closely together last year, and I loved her.  She and I have a very similar style of organization, communication, and planning and the areas in which we’re different compliment each other.  Since you work so closely with the other New Teacher Advisor, working well together is everything.  I knew I wouldn’t have the same opportunity to work with her again in this position.  So I went for it.

I put in my application, wrote my letter of intent, and scrambled to get the last-minute letters of recommendation I needed.  My colleagues and administrators wrote glowing reviews of me, and even if I didn’t get the job, they really boosted my spirits with what they’d said. I’d worked at my school for 10 years, and had forged relationships with my colleagues and students that had created a true community.  I would miss everything about my school, including teaching, but I also knew that the relationships I had with these people would last a lifetime, no matter where the future took me.

The week of August 11th was whirlwind!  On one hand I was preparing to start school as a teacher, but in the background, I was setting up the interviews for this new position.  If I got the position, would I start the year teaching and then move into the new position once they’d hired my replacement?  I couldn’t sleep at night, working through the scenarios of how the school would be able to replace me in the easiest way.  My head was swirling with the different teachers who might take on each of my assignments so we could cobble together a more reasonable position to hire for.  I was at a professional development for our district teachers on the morning of August 13th when I ran into the HR Director in the bathroom, who said she’d heard that I had applied, and she was really excited about it.  She said that if I were to get the position, she’d like me to start right away, and not have me in the classroom at all, because it would be easier for the students.  She said, “but you’re really difficult to replace.  Do you have any ideas?”  I told her a few of my thoughts, which she really liked, and it seemed like a great sign that I might actually get the job.  As luck would have it,  I gave a 15-minute presentation to the English teachers throughout the district about how I use Turnitin to make grading essays easier.  The Director of Curriculum saw me present, as did the Assistant Superintendent in charge of Curriculum.  My presentation was really well received, and it became a way for me to show my abilities in professional development, which would help me in my interview.  Everything was falling into place.

Friday morning I was at my school where I would be teaching if I didn’t get the job.  At the welcome breakfast I felt weird; I wanted to tell  my colleagues what was going on, but knew I couldn’t, since my interview was later that afternoon, and nothing was set yet.  I led my department meeting, since at that point I was still the department chair, but it felt so strange not to tell them about what was going on.  Still, no use in getting everyone riled up if I wasn’t certain about my status.  Later that morning I went into the vice principal’s office with him and our principal to share with them the ideas as to how to replace me, because both of them had the indication that I was going to get the job.  I was thrilled, but didn’t want to be overly confident, because until they offered me the position, it wasn’t mine.  After talking to the four teachers who would take the different sections I was to teach, we had a really viable position to offer someone new.  I can’t explain how appreciate I am that my colleagues stepped up at literally the last minute to take on a brand new assignment so that I could accept the job, if it was offered to me.  One more reason I absolutely love the school I’d been teaching at for 10 years.

I rushed home to change for the interview, because I had decided that I would go into it as if I didn’t work in the district.  In other words, I was taking it very seriously and wanted to present myself in the best possible light.  I would talk about myself as if they didn’t know who I was and what my accomplishments were.  I would go in there and prove that I was THE person for the job.  I had the interview at 3:30, and it went well.  It was a quick 30 minute back and forth where I answered a set of 12 questions.  I had thought that because of the timing I might have the second interview right away, but they told me they’d be in touch and sent me on my way.  I left the district office confused about when I would find out.  School started on Monday.  As I was pulling up to a colleague’s house to attend his TGIF, I got a call from the HR Director who said she’d like to do the 2nd interview on the phone.  All I kept thinking was that I hope my cell reception would last because I was in the hills, and it could be spotty.  She asked me a few hard-hitting questions, which I answered easily, and then, after about 20 minutes of the interview, she paused and said, “well, we’d like to offer you the job!”  Yay!!!!  I was elated, because even though all indications had looked like I would get the position, that my background and experience made me the ideal candidate, I still didn’t want to take anything for granted.  I was elated that I had the position!  I thanked her so much for believing in me and for giving me the opportunity, and went into the TGIF party, where my principal was in attendance, to tell everyone the good news.  It was bittersweet, because I will really miss working at my high school, but it was also amazing, because I was about to start this new adventure.

I spent all of Sunday cleaning out my classroom.  I worked hard, shed tears at all the memories, and also looked ahead to all that I was about to take on. As a New Teacher Advisor, would mentor new teachers, observe them, offer guidance, and gather resources that they needed.  I would be their lifeline into this new world of teaching, which can be daunting and overwhelming, but ultimately so satisfying. With the new position I also have the opportunity to create and present professional development for the new teachers, as well as any other teachers who want to come to them.  Presenting to adults is something that many educators find difficult, but something at which I thrive.  I’ve never felt nervous presenting in front of anyone, whether it’s a 16-year-old honors student or the CEO of a company.  My confidence allows me to command a room, and I was excited that I would get the chance to display my strengths in this area.

This Monday was my first day, and it was hectic.  I had a new office, a new position, new responsibilities, and a new schedule.  Because I work around when the 1st and 2nd year teachers have time to meet, my schedule isn’t set.  Eventually I’ll get into a regular schedule of meeting with them, but for now, my day-to-day routine was very scattered.  As much as I like change and variety, I also crave structure.  I like knowing my schedule, getting into a routine, and working within those boundaries.  It keeps me organized and sane.  Not to mention fitting in workouts.  I was a bit uncomfortable and overwhelmed at the beginning of the week with the amorphous nature of the days, but after I was able to take a bit of time to organize my appointments, I felt so much better.  Never once did I think I’d made a mistake, and I can already tell that I made the right decision.

This week has been chaotic, but it’s been wonderful.  I didn’t workout as regularly as I would have hoped, but I did fit in several cardio workouts.  I lost weight (more on that in a later post), and I was able to set a bit of organization in place.  I attended two trainings, drove to 4 schools, went to Santa Cruz for a forum, met individually with 4 new teachers, sent countless emails, and even prepared and presented an orientation for our 1st year teachers.  What a week!

I’m so excited with this new direction my career and my life has taken.  My main focus, besides doing an awesome job that supports these new teachers, is to retain a work/life balance.  I have struggled with that in the past, because my natural instincts as an overachieving perfectionist make me a workaholic.  I am bound and determined not to go down that rabbit hole as I have in the past.  I know that this new position will make my schedule challenging, but once I get into the rhythm of meeting weekly with the 18 teachers on my caseload, I know I’ll be able to build a manageable schedule.

It’s not lost on me that I have achieved another goal that I set for myself years ago.  I am so proud of myself and my accomplishments, and happy that my hard work over the years has led me to this point in my career.  I wanted this job for so long, and now I’m going to be able to do it! I’m thrilled at the possibilities that are laid out before me, and I want to appreciate all that I will experiencing.

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There’s nothing quite like feeling all snuggly in the fall and winter time, wearing your favorite pj’s and cuddling up on the couch to watch a movie, or under the  covers to read that book you’ve been dying to dive into.  One of the things I was looking forward to in this new house was that the private yard would mean I could stay in my pj’s as long as I wanted to and wouldn’t have to worry about the neighbors seeing me every time I wanted to go outside with Lulu (in the backyard, of course).  On the weekends that I don’t have plans, I live in my pj’s.  The problem has been that all of my old pj’s were, well, old.  Worn out, faded, threadbare.  And Lane Bryant stopped making warm & cuddly pj’s in favor of sexy ones.  I’m sure some people appreciate that, but I wanted comfy, cozy pj’s.  And Monday I got a catalog from Woman Within that had the cutest pj’s ever!

(Let me say that I don’t normally shop at Woman Within because I find that most of their clothes fit in the “old lady” section, but I was pleasantly surprised by the winter catalog).

Not only did they have pj’s, but they had great prices on cotton undies (aka granny panties, but who cares?), socks, workout/lounge pants, and t-shirts.  I stocked up!  I even found two cute pairs of shoes.  All for much, much less than I expected.  I’m set for weekend comfort, that’s for sure.

Here’s what I got… (click on anything to make it bigger)

I like that the pj sets come with long-sleeved t-shirts instead of heavier tops, because I tend to sleep warm.  Plus, I have plenty of sweatshirts/cardigans I can layer if I get too cold.

Each set of pj’s came with a free pair of slippers, so I got 1 red pair and 1 navy pair.

I got these in black & charcoal gray.  These are perfect for working out, but also for lazing around or going to the dog park/running errands/walks with Lulu on the weekends or after work during the week.

The sneakers I got are actually full size, not mules as this photo shows (kind of like photo with the pants, above).  I have been wanting some easy, knock-around sneakers for the dog park/easy walking.  These are great because they’re a good color and they’re wide width.

And I also got one in a violet color.  I’m always in need to workout t-shirts, and these will be perfect.  They’re a soft, combed cotton, which will be nice.  Plus, they were so cheap – $5.99 each!!

I’ve been needing some casual brown flats that are wide width, so when I saw these, and they were on sale, I knew I had to try them.  They aren’t that pretty to look at, but they’re perfect for standing on my feet all day at school.  (One of the things I’m really looking forward to “some day” is wearing sexier shoes and not feeling like I’d rather cut off my feet than wear them another second).

I also got panties and socks, but you know what those look like.  Not too thrilling, but they had such good prices, I figured, why not save a trip to the mall.

I have plenty of sweaters from last winter, so I’m really all set for now until I start going down in sizes.  Can’t wait for that!!

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The “boy situation”

A few of you who follow me on Twitter might remember that a couple of weeks ago I mentioned that an old crush of mine changed his relationship status to single on Facebook.  And I “liked” it.  (So, high school, I know). But it was a fairly big move for me, since I haven’t dated anyone in a long, long time.

To give you some background, this guy dated a former friend of mine (she and I haven’t spoken for over 2 years, so girl code doesn’t apply), and at the time she said that she thought J and I would be better together than she would with him.  She knew he was totally my type (stocky, strong build, olive skin, dark hair), and his larger than life personality was a perfect match for my own.  (I’ve always felt that I needed to date someone who could “match” me in that area.  I don’t want to be with someone who I feel I could “walk all over”).  And while he doesn’t have a formal education (college degree), he owns his own import/export business, as well as his own house.  He’s Portuguese, which is as close to Italian as you can get without actually being Italian.  🙂  Plus, he’s just a fun person to be around and always makes sure that everyone around him is having a good time.  I thought J was cute back then, and I got some vibes from him that he felt the same way about me, but because he was dating my friend, we both put those feelings aside.  And then when they broke up we didn’t see each other because we don’t really run in the same circles.  (The only down side to J, and this is a fairly large one, is that he has two kids by two different baby-mamas.  Not sure how much drama that entails, but it seems like there would be some, right?).

Anyway… Friday evening J wrote on my Facebook page:

J: Nice doggy
B: Thanks, she’s a sweetheart.  Hope you’re doing well
J: Doing very well
J: And u? {I hate that ‘u’ instead of ‘you,’ but I’m going to put that English teacher part of me aside}.
B: Life is good.
J: That’s good.
J: Hit me up sometime xxx-xxxx
B: I will.
{and then I chickened out and wrote today)
B: Maybe it’s easier for you to call me? xxx-xxxx (Most days after 4-5pm ’till 11, or so).

🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 !!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so to most of you that’s not that big a thing, but to me, who has been dateless for over 2 years (mostly by my choice), this is fairly big.  I mean, I’m not wrong in thinking that he’s flirting here, right?  I am a bit concerned that it’s so soon after he broke up with his last girlfriend, but then again, I’m not getting married.  I’m just looking for someone to have a good time with – in terms of going on dates and hanging out;  I’m not DTF (Jersey Shore fans will know what I mean; others can look it up on Urban Dictionary, if they want to), because we’ll have to be really dating (aka girlfriend/boyfriend defined) before that happens.

I can’t help but go over in my mind that I’m a good 60 pounds heavier than the last time J saw me.  Which makes me feel unattractive, no matter how pretty he might consider my face.  Which sort of puts a downer on this whole thing, and I don’t want to go there right now.  I mean, I have very current pictures of myself (mostly face, but some full-ish body) on Facebook, and J is sure to have a decent idea of what I look like now and he was interested enough to contact me.  So I shouldn’t try to assume what his type is or whether or not he thinks I’m too fat, because he obviously doesn’t. (I love it when I give myself a little kick in the ass like that, don’t you?!)

And my biggest problem has always been getting too far ahead of myself, so for now, I’m just going to hope that he makes the phone call and we even want to go out on a date (for coffee or a drink or something easy).  Plus, there are a few red flags with this guy, although his pluses outweigh his minuses, at this point. No matter what, it’s exciting.  And something to occupy my mind besides weight loss, grading, and t.v.  LOL.

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Dwell in possibility.”  ~~Emily Dickinson

This quote is perfect for me this week, since I have the entire week off, and I feel like the possibilities are endless.  I have no set plans, and nothing on the agenda other than to get as active as I can.

“Dwelling in possibility” is such a positive outlook, because anything can happen.  There are no limitations, other than those imposed by your own mind. In general, I believe that I try to dwell in possibility most of the time.  I love imagining what CAN be possible.  And this week, I’m lucky because I don’t have anything else to concentrate on so I can imagine, and dream, and most of all, DO.

Since I don’t have any set plans other than working out and organizing the house a bit, I’d love to hear your suggestions for how I should spend my time.  What would you do with yourself if you had a day off? I’m asking how you would spend a day off, rather than a week, because I want to make each day it’s own unique experience.

Keep in mind that it’s currently raining here (April showers bring May flowers, I hope!), so that does put some limitations on activities, at least until we see the sun again.

I can’t wait to hear your suggestions, and I hope you have a wonderful Monday.

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